决

一个决定，要经过深思熟虑；
一旦决定了，就放胆向前奔；
再高再重的阻碍，用爬的也要爬过去；
别等到老了，没力气去冲了，才抱头说后悔。

大家一起加油吧~！！

Day(s)

感觉上，人老了，就只想静静地待在家里，陪陪家人，小狗。
把握时间，让自己充充电能，好赶上第二天的进度。

有些事，热爱渐渐散去，就由得它去吧。
不想再把头栽进去了。可能觉得对自己已没意义了。

人生好漫长，做起碎事来却已过了大半辈子。
赶快搞清楚自己要的是什么吧！

读者们，晚安了！:)


Jess

29/9

那种有人时时刻刻为你着急，为你担心的感受，应该不赖吧？
最近看戏会想太多，不能怪我，因为做工要仔细分析，所以习惯了。
嘿嘿嘿。

Fire and Pages

最近事业不顺心，压力越来越大。有时想想，这些真的是我要得吗？答案可想而知。
我的梦想似乎离我越来越远，我有时真的想敢敢去做，不要理什么不堪设想，至少沾到它的边缘也好。可是，就像现在，我又把自己藏到角落去，什么都不敢去做。我越来越窝囊了，以前的我，一声下来就去做，采它都傻。

I don't wanna be shaped up by society, why can't I just be who I am?
I am not a stringed puppet, I do what I do and it is in my own will.
It's easy to speak; to do, it's all about determination.
Looking at the this path I'm pacing through, I'm slamming all these words right back to my face.
We only live once, shouldn't we live a life of our dream?

Life is like a melodiuos song,
with longer and shorter notes of events, people, things to cherish;
with higher and lower tone of our emotions;
to love, to sing, to humm along;
to make life beautiful before we meet the double bar line.


To be happy again,
Jess

未来。未知

工作后好久没和妈咪好好的谈话了，终于刚刚和妈咪有了久违的长谈，谈到很多东西。

我妈咪要退休了，两人都很高兴她能享清福，她把计划排到满满，好学的妈咪要报名绘画班，唱歌班，还下定决心要练好太极拳。真是有益身心啊~~

然后就谈到我，问我工作习惯吗？上手了吗？

其实我想好好规划我的人生，有些梦想，不太实际，可我还是想尝试努力把它达成。

我喜欢旅行，这是无可否认的事，问题是要怎样用我的能力去做到。

当空姐？很遗憾的我会晕机，到时候我怕吐在客人身上，那时就惨了。

那么，背包旅行呢？可以，不过得要有本钱，所以要去赚钱。

想想，继续读书也不是坏事，我觉得现在的我学问不够充实，还得补补。可以到国外深造是更好的办法。也可以半工半读，省时又有益。

我的烦恼，好烦。

潇洒不起来啦。。。。T^T

来咯~

拖了那么久，终于要开工了。
总觉得隐隐不安，很多东西都拿来担心。
忧心仲仲啊~~

要充分准备思绪，用词，态度，表现。都不容易。
要读的书还没读完。得快马加鞭了。哈哈哈哈。

最后，希望能平平安安，用用心心，顺顺利利。
静心，一切顺其自然。

Reach out

I need a direction, a dream to guide me.
What i need most, is the courage to chase my dreams. 

Is there an angel out there to give me a hand?


"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."
- Walt Disney -

=)

平安无事了。感恩。=)


"It matters not who you love, where you love, why you love, when you love or how you love, it matters only that you love” 
― John Lennon

家人。爱

两母女没有抱头痛哭，那太戏剧化了。
只是，轮流偷偷擦干眼泪，可是心知肚明大家都在哭。

我知道我很倔强，可能顽固这词会比较合适，
可你们都没骂我。
爸爸很生气我没有好好照顾身体，都不和我说话。
我知道，每天吃那些垃圾食物，又没有准时吃三餐，是不对的。
妈妈就很担心我到底怎么了，还说，当事人都没她那么操心。
姐姐忙着联络医生，想选最可靠的良药。

真好，有着爱我的家人。我也很爱你们。我会学着疼惜你们的。=')

=X

在对自己发脾气。没用的东西。

unknown

No wonder i kept feeling heaty these days. It felt like a slight fever, but in few hours it's gone, then it's back again.

Thought it was the weather's fault, but no. There's this thing in my body that i don't know of. Am trying to understand those freaking medical terms. All of them looked so unfamiliar.

Just, what in the earth is happening in me? I need a doctor.

A.M.

多久了，半夜三更我还不想睡觉。
有人说，夜晚思考，思绪会清晰十倍。
这可能是我不舍得结束这一天的原因吧。

有些事过去了，却硬硬要把它搬回来思考。
左想右想，
到底哪里做错了？
我想改，可不知从何做起。
这样下去，我说不定会后悔终身啊。。。。

时间，说到底，是最宝贵的东西。
不要浪费时间了，好不好？

有吗？

有没有人试过，想一个人，想到心秋着，很痛。
那，又有没有遇过，一个让你很想忘掉，却永远忘不掉的人。
是不是以为失联后会比较好过？可能吧。
至少，你不需要再在他面前伪装开心。
很早很早以前，就该结束的东西，为什么到现在记忆还存在着？


晚安。愿你有个美梦。愿你开开心心。

Cross Road

It's sort of dreadful to have all of my time occupied by work. It makes me feel, restless. No matter how many hours i took for my sleep, it never seemed to be enough.
This makes to lazier and lazier to go meet up with friends. This is bad, I know.

But to look at the bright side, I thank god to have to work too, or else I'd stay rotted in my own room. Letting the movie's playlist non stop playing, I'd finish spending my days in no time. It's just, sometimes, motivations are required to keep me going on.

I seem to lost my goal that I've been wanting to reach.
 The goal from last time, was just to do well in my studies, that I'd spend time for my assignments, exams and presentations. But for now, that I'm graduated (finally confirmed after having certain nightmares), I don't know what is best for me anymore.

 Some suggested post grad studies, but I'm not that interested in it. I feel I have some other goals to achieve. At this point of life, what choice do I have? Which path should I take? What do I wanna become in the future? There's no certain answer to all of this, needless to say, I won't know any of it unless I took the path.

I need to stop slacking. Right. Now.

April

今晚，睡不着。明明关好灯，盖好被，双眼却不肯合作。 可能想着太多，脑袋超载了。 最近又超忙，做完工后，又要赶报告。 好不容易做完一个，马上又要赶另外一份。 这还好，问题是，赶完最后一份报告后，电脑还敢敢给我当机， 开回去后整份报告不见了。 凌晨4点，呆看着荧幕，心痛死了。 很不想相信事实。可是又无可奈何。 只能摸摸鼻子，乖乖地从打。 哦，还有，原来4点钟打电话给朋友，还有人真肯接，那感觉还不错啦。 说来说去，到头来只能怪自己咯，这临时抱佛脚的态度，很难改啊。 还好，有机会去放松心情。 去了朋友波德申的别墅，非常豪华，真的让我跌破眼镜。 那别墅，有个泳池，桌球，兵帮桌，钢琴，吉他，K歌器，感觉上就是很专业的度假村。 非常享受那2天2夜的旅程。 虽然第一晚喝酒差不多全军覆没，不过第二天算是逍遥自在了。 然后勒，要说的是，真得真的，当朋友会比较开心,自在。谢谢你。=)

=)

不知不觉，在心底引起了一波涟漪。 =)

One of the things

Dear body,

I'm sorry I've treated you this way, feeding you the wrong foods and not taking care of you. I promise to do better and get you back to the healthy state you were once in.

We can do it!

Sincerely,
Me.

20th March

Today has been, blur, i should say.

Took the old Honda to college, stopped by petrol station to pump petrol. So the thing is, the "penutup" for my car's gas container, fell onto the floor, and it freaking rolled under the car. right behind the tayar. The short skirt i was wearing gave me troubles, anyway, i managed to pull the penutup out, but i heard something fell, but i was too blur to check. Got into the car n ciao-ed.

Halfway driving, the sun light was blazing into my eyes, so i held my hand out to reach for my sunglasses, and it was gone. When it was supposed to hang around my T shirt, it was gone. By that time only i realized the something that fell at the petrol station was my sunglasses. Only pair of sunglasses. RIP. =(

Then I got home at late night, was rushing to remove my makeups. So with my contact lens on, i wiped my eyes with the soaked cotton, and the sting came in. Eyes went red, and felt weird. I can really slap myself for this.


Anyway, Im gonna plan things accordingly, of what i want to do and to fulfill my wishes (get an Iphone perhaps?).

Good day now, folks. =)

Lee Hom

力宏的演唱会，我敢说，真的不简单。这不是我第一次看演唱会，可是真的是我看到中最棒的！！

尤其它的荧光幕，那效果是一等一的美。一会儿下雪，一会儿在血红夕阳里；一会儿满天星空，一会儿在高山上。有一幕，力宏原地踏步，但银幕中，力宏正在走路。还有，他打败了所有荧幕里的敌人。

荧幕虽然很棒，但主角还是王力宏。

我不想逃避现实，力宏真的超级无敌帅！！！！！！！！

我的座位在很后边，只能看到小小的他。脸部表情完全看不到，只能看大电视，有小小的失望。

不过， 他竟然边唱边环场一圈，而我，竟可以近距离看到王力宏！！就一米的距离！！！我的天啊，眼神还对望了0.01秒！！！！电死我了，心都融了，他还对我们笑！！！！爱惨他了现在！！！ <3<3

我非常崇拜他，好像什么乐器都难不倒他。小提琴，二胡，吉他，电子吉他，鼓，钢琴，唱歌，跳舞，他统统都会！！！！他是花了多少时间才能掌握这些啊？ 不要告诉我他是天才，我不信！！他只是多才多艺！！不过也够迷人的了！！

爱上你了，力宏！<3

020312

Finally turned 22 years old now. It's as if I've been waiting to reach this age for a long time. Been telling people I'm 22 even though I was only 21. Anyway, it's the first time I spent my birthday working. Not bad, still contented.

So here is how i celebrated for my 22nd. =)

First, my best male buddy brought me to lunch at Sakae Sushi. I picked the spot for convenience, but the food for my long cravings. Talking bout this guys, he's been working for so long already, even though he's younger than me by few months, i still can't accept it. I should be the one making money first! In sense of elderness. but anyway, he was so generous to treat me sushi, and i took as many as i could eat. and tada~~~~ FAV UDON!!!!! =D thankiew JJ~!! love you for a lifetime!!! =)

Next, my boss aka god brother and colleague joined for lunch. Made friends bonding. XP and then they took me to dinner at Kaki Corner, one of my favourite spot for chilling and hanging out. The singers there sang a happy birthday song for the kid nex to my table, while i silently enjoy the song too. XP I had brown sauce chicken~~ one of my fav dishes!!

Then we headed straight for band practice, and there's where i got to blow cakes~ n yeah, im the so called yellow ranger in the team, for being called sunflower. LOL.

and my lovely band members jammed the birthday song to me. With me sitting right at the centre of all of their amps and speakers. Heart raced, blood rush, ears thumped. Awesomest song i ever had!!!! ears couldnt hear for a minute or two after that, but yeahh!!! we rocked the house again!! XP

What came next, my awesomest buddies from kisiao came to cheras for me!!!! I'm so loved!!!! I know most of them worked that day, but despite their tiredness, they came. I'm seriously touched guys. you the best!!! i blew candles from an orange cake from starbucks *credits to ilex*, and they wished me happy birthday, right at the end of my day. =') it's good to have u guys to be with me. =')


They gave me books to read, a whole set of vampire diaries, which I've been wanting to try out, but i didnt due to financial incapabilities. *hearts*

And a friend who succeeded in surprising me with a bombastic hard disk drive. Thank you. It's as if u can read my mind. =)

Happy Birthday to me. Long live the Jess. =)

现在

此刻心情，淡淡的幸福，点点的忧伤。
享拥着短短的宁静，很珍惜现在空出的时间。
真的恨不得把每一点时间很充实的过完。

不一样了，做工忙到我想看一部电影的时间都没有。
现在我只能和一般人一样，去看看周末的影片，想使用我学生的权利也不能。
和别人一样的时间上班，和别人一样的时间下班。
望着那可恶的车海，真希望我能飞着回家。

不过这样也好，让我早一点适应往后的日子，
让我早一点点麻痹。
日子，总是要过的。

大新年

又是一年一度的新年啦！！总觉得今年新年来得好快，还没准备好迎接它就到了。

因为工作关系，除夕团圆饭没能吃到。虽然已经很尽力得赶回家，可家人竟没等我开饭。亏我还拼命要求上司让我break两个钟，还特地赶回家吃饭再赶回去做工。回到家竟然全部人都吃完了，在睡觉。不知是我太重视这顿饭还是怎样。爸爸看我回来了，去叫醒妈妈让她陪我吃饭。很感谢爸爸妈妈，虽然吃饱了还特地陪我吃，现在想起还眼睛湿湿呢！有说不出的感动。。=')

然后初一到啦，今天两点才回到马六甲，实在太赛车了。然后就像赶场似的去拜年。亲戚看到我都说我变了，变得成熟了，好像出了社会的样子。可能是发型关系吧。一个两个都叫我去做模特儿。不过，爸爸不给我也没办法。XP

看到疼我的姨丈，就大谈特谈起来。我告诉他，我以后要有一台BMW。
他说很好，有能力买一台是好事。可是，如果有能力让别人送一台BMW就更厉害了。
他这句话让我深思啊，很有道理的一句话。提点了即将出社会的我，人际关系能给人影响很大。自己好自为之。

过后终于和久违的表兄弟见面。很想念以前我们一起闹着玩的日子，总是胡混在一起。现在长大了，要玩得颠也有点困难啊。

我们来期待未过完的信念吧！要快乐噢！！=D

很老套的一句，新年快乐！！！！

Breakeven? Hell no.

Beautiful cover for the song. Credits to Chelsie.

Not gonna trap myself anymore,
not when the sky is so broad,
not when the future awaits.

Thank you. Good bye. =)

假设，如果。

其实，
可能，
或许，

失恋，
没什么大不了。

可能，自己被逼身在其中，
只能无力地在伤痛里徘徊。

可能，自己下意识地夸大所有感官，
让所有人事物影响自己。

或许，
只是想籍着它们来重温所有甜蜜回忆。

又或者，只是自己跟自己过不去，
偏偏就是要转牛角尖。

可是，如果这些“可能”都是真的话，
就不会有人哭泣了。
就不会有人心碎了。
就不会有人伤心了。

如果不是真心喜欢，就不要随便踏进去。

最近

最近满享受一个人的感觉。
一个人逛街，一个人逛书局，
一个人驾车，一个人听音乐。
很悠闲，很自在。

换作以前的我，
如果一个人逛街，我会觉得是极大的羞耻。
现在，如果一个人在外面吃饭我都可以接受（虽然暂时还没经历过）。

长大了，思想也不同了。
今年，我即将二十二岁，正式进入大人区。
我得承认，我老了。>.<