practiced it everyday, but it sort of got worse. i just wanted to perfect it, but it never come true, kept slipping fingers, pressing wrong notes.. just why??
no more feeling and joy in it? i still do, deep inside, but i can sense that its fading.. further n further, unwanted to be seen. come back... dun lost yourself.
right, that's what im saying, come back...
but still, where's my confident?? playing it when i think its ugly.. n it gets more n more ugly.. till i throw it away with disgust. it aint suppose to be this way. i love it right? yes? no? im not sure anymore.
maybe i shouldn't think this much, maybe i should just close my eyes n play.. but when i listen, its really unsatisfying n frustrating. maybe im having high expectations, but what's wrong with that?? coz it makes me stress n tensed, so stop having high expectations, just play with ur will, ignore everything, just play with ur heart? yeah, maybe i'll do that.
she said i lost my standard, n i play worse each week, but i practiced even more!! why is it worse?? it shouldnt be that way. i put my hardwork on it. shouldnt it improve even a little bit?
unprepared, feel empty, nothing inside at all. how can i pass in this condition?? hate this.
august, please come faster.
jess
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2 months ago
8 comments:
Jess, i think you think too much d, that's why it affected your playing. I know not much about playing the piano, but I do know that if you keep thinking about it, you will unconsciously pressure yourself into playing it better, which result in you playing worse. Because you're too conscious about wanting it to be better, you are playing the piano with your "head" instead of playing it with your "heart" like you should have.
yeah, just let it go smoothly like usual. dun bloody care about the tunes la and all. u have ur fun playing with the melody first, then u will gain ur confidence, and u can continue for ur practice!
take care, and dun too tense! cnt help u much friend
thx gurls. helped much. guess i got too tensed up last nite. >.<
i know g8 is not that easy.as the same i told you yesterday..
everything just give yr best..dun expect too high..it might make u more worse... enjoy the way u play the songs..
play for yr interest and not for exam !
gambateh girl..u can make it =)
u r the best in our heart... dun be too stress... u must believe urself! u can do it!
GOOD LUCK!
just be calm, u can do it, maybe ur teacher pour cold water on you so u feel even worse, just play as u think it is the best, just ignore ur teacher, u can play very well, maybe u r nervous bcos this is ur final grade, listen to the original play, get the feelings, u r pisces! put some feelings into ur song, i m sure it will be great! pisces are artistic! hahaha
rmb? u can compose very nice music, i even thought that it was from those pro pianist
gambateh! frens r oways there to support u!
lalala...haha..jom,kita latihan again!!pergi 6 floor!!
lolz... siao ta bo.. yerr. ltr me lagi stress.. T-T
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