newly learned

first,

went through youtube, found out sumthing really fascinating. in United Kingdom, there;s this activity called street piano, which they locate over 30 pianos on random streets, n is opened for public to use. feel free to approach it n just play~ wat i saw was in London n Sydney. it is so so so awesome!!! the pianos are all painted up with colorful patterns, n there'll be a quote saying, "Play Me, I'm Yours" it is sooooooooooooooooooo tempting!! hahahaha.. how i wish there's this kinda things in Msia. oh well.. dream on gurl >.<

check this out, its anthony, a very talented boy with impressing skills. playing a street piano loacted in a mall. =)

title: chopin's wallts in E minor




second,

bro came bak today~ n wat we found out is tht~!!! HE HAS A GF!! hhahahaa, aalthough i've been suspecting him tht he has a gf a few months ago, but juz nvr asked him, coz he'll definately IGNORE my question. kekekee...

ok, how we found out is tht, he was wearing those kinda buddhist bracelet, to protect ppl one, made by threads one. get the pic? haha, n he usually dun wear it. =D n my parents started shooting questions towards this topic. hahaha, n he admitted!! XD i even went to his facebook acc n dig out the pic right away~!! think he'll curse me beneath his breathe, but hu cares!! wakakaka, quite attractive n pretty gurl~ hahahahahhaa... cant wait for her visit nx week!! muekekekeke...
n here, i congrate you, my dear bro~ hehehehehe, hav fun!! =D


done,
~ jess ~

10 things

thing no. 1 : i have 5 days left before the piano exam.. which is kinda getting on to my nerves d.. i had a dream last night, kind of a bad thing, quoted from jojo: bad dream must tell, gud dreams keep to urself. so here it is, i dreamt tht i was in the exam room, n the examiner is veli veli short guy, n he somehow looked like a elf from harry potters movie.. neh.. the elfs from bank. then i was like.. totally dunno how to play my songs, (coz they r not my reality songs) n i blur blur went to exam. the songs. i can hardly play.. walao the feeling sucks to the max, going to exam while i thought im prepared liao, dimzhi flip open the book, the songs i barely played b4.. thn the examinor told me to come exam later(n i was already in the room), he said 12pm, (it was around 8am by then) so i was so happy coz i got more time to prepare myself.. keep playing the songs.. but the song seems to change everytime i play it... holy.. coulddnt sleep well... been so so worried.. well now tht i've tell it out, my exam's gonna be smooth rite?? >.<


thing no.2 : i played a whole 2hours piano without stopping, n another 2 whole hour of practicing the aural test for the exam.. holy.. 4 hours gone. great. wrist pain-ing. n my tip of my nails are BLACK in color. =)thx to the lovely CLEAN piano. @.@


thing no.3 : my finals is a day after my piano exam. which.. i just finish half of the bio, n 0% of statistic. =) im thinking of rushing all of them on wed. izzit possible? n oh, statistic i can oni lost 3 marks to Grade A. lagi stress.


thing no. 4: my mom incredibly allowed me to go out with my frens for overnight in morib. wow~ i thought i was dreaming, that's y i dun dare to reconfirm. =p will wait for nx thur to reconfirm. hiak hiak.


thing no.5 : i wasnt planning to blog wan.. but sine ms jojo are so badly spamming, so here it is ms jojo tan ying rou. hope it entertains u. =]


thing no.6 : oh oh.. tml hav piano lessons, n i haven practiced my scales.. which my teacher will definately ask me to play, n which i totally suck at it. so ltr will be another 2 hours of scaless~~ weeeeeeee~


thing no.7 : i wanna eat junkfood so so badly!! i wanna eat mcd's breakfast, its pancake n the yummy burger!! i am sick of being sick, when will my flu go away from me? will my nose be stuffed like forever?? >.<


thing no.8 : social relation is going down down down. must let it go back up up up. which i will do after final.


thing no.9 : still thinking whether shud i take 5 subz nx sem... will i go stress like crazy?? coz i'll be working nx sem too.. can i balance the time? hmmmm...i wonder.


thing no.10: me really no likey tags... but jason i'll do it after finals ok? heheheh.. as a 'present' for u b4 u leave for US. =]


recorded,
~ jess ~

JERRY!!!

fell in love with jerry yan AGAIN!!!
this is not gud.... really not gud!! >.<
but he is sooooo HOT n CUTE!!!!
arrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

- jess -

my melody

practiced it everyday, but it sort of got worse. i just wanted to perfect it, but it never come true, kept slipping fingers, pressing wrong notes.. just why??

no more feeling and joy in it? i still do, deep inside, but i can sense that its fading.. further n further, unwanted to be seen. come back... dun lost yourself.

right, that's what im saying, come back...

but still, where's my confident?? playing it when i think its ugly.. n it gets more n more ugly.. till i throw it away with disgust. it aint suppose to be this way. i love it right? yes? no? im not sure anymore.

maybe i shouldn't think this much, maybe i should just close my eyes n play.. but when i listen, its really unsatisfying n frustrating. maybe im having high expectations, but what's wrong with that?? coz it makes me stress n tensed, so stop having high expectations, just play with ur will, ignore everything, just play with ur heart? yeah, maybe i'll do that.

she said i lost my standard, n i play worse each week, but i practiced even more!! why is it worse?? it shouldnt be that way. i put my hardwork on it. shouldnt it improve even a little bit?

unprepared, feel empty, nothing inside at all. how can i pass in this condition?? hate this.
august, please come faster.


jess

medicine

tonite got bak in touch with a senior that i haven talk to for nearly 2 years+. n incredibly, we managed to talk about lotsa things. n i dun remember being this close with him years ago. maybe yes but, well, i couldnt remember wat drfited us apart. busy life maybe? it just happened. n luckily i got bak in touch with him. his intention was to invite me to play badminton, n surprisingly he remembered tht i play badminton. guud. haha. of coz i accepted the invitation, nid to get myself heated up for sports again. =]

then dunno how the topic came to that i was feeling sick. ta da~ he asked me to see doctor, same reaction like every fren tht know im sick-ing. well then, i made gud excuse for not going to the doctor, saying i wanna build up my immune system, n since he's studying bio, he knows that well. but still lost to the debate tht i shud eat medicines. so it ended up him sending the medicines n strepsils over to my place at this hour of the day. was shocked that he really turned up at my doorsteps. hahaha.

im really thankful for his action. as in really REALLY thankful. kakaka. will intro u lenglui! promise!!


hates sore throat,
~ jess ~

sinned

there was this dog, started to come to our house yesterday, i assume it came in through the drain hole. then i tried to get close to it, but its eyes seemed empty n not willing to come closer. or worse, when i get close to it, it just growl at me. so i gave up n continue my things inside the house. thn my family got bak n feed the dog out of kindness. but it din really eat much though.

then this morning it was still behind the plants in my garden, thn evening it went out again. i tot it just went away, like some stray dogs. so i din quiet put it in my heart.

then after we had dinner outside n came bak an hour ago, we found it at the same spot again, behind the plants. hiding. thn my dad started to shoo it out of our house, coz we think tht it might carry some disease or kutu.

dad used a stick to threaten it so tht it would get scared n leave, but it started growling at us again. n resisted to move. so my dad jz beat it, n it started barking n squeaking allt he noise, it kinda look like some chiwawa, but its not. n when the dog started growling at us, spikey came out under the car and started barking n growling at the dog too. then after 1min of threatening, dad got tired n coz my sis kept screaming behind, dad got fired up n ask her to get in the house. i was oso irritated to all the screaming n barking n all, sumo i was sick n im half deaf, annoyed enuff rite? sumo spikey started attacking the dog, biting it n fighting. to not to let spikey get hurt, i jz ask my dad to spray water on the dog, coz i think dogs normally hate water. so my dad got a pipe n spray water at it, the idea worked, the dog got out within 2seconds. i was opening the gate, n saw him went out so i started to close the gate.

then i saw a car drove pass in front of my house making some banging noise, thn i thought i heard a squeak sound, i looked but there was ntg. so i tot it was coz by the bumper in fronta my house. then my mom beside me said, the dog got banged. i was stunned, n 60% not bliving her coz i checked the road moments ago. thn i moved to her place n looked, there, the dog lied in the middle of the road, motionless, not moving at all. n all i can do is.. stare at it.. i cannot digest the things i saw. really cannot. it was moving up n down minutes ago, n its lying there now? i was trying to cheat myself tht it would suddenly move n wake up n walk away. but no... after minutes, it just stayed there.. n it was the peak hour of cars passing, i saw it being ran over the wheels again.. i cannot describe how im feeling now.. i feel.. sorry, guilty, evil, dark, helpless, SINNED.

dad picked up the dog n buried it.. to avoid more cars to run over.

If.. and only if, i knew tht was going to happen, i'll just tell my dad to leave the dog to hide at the same spot. till it get bored n go away itself.

dog, im sorry. i am really really sorry. plz rest in peace.


guilt running all over me,
~ jess ~

no hamster

days ago, eugene sais tht he could give me his hansters after he finished his psychology experiment on it. n so, today he came by my college to pass me the hamsters, they r SO CUTE!!! well thx eugene~~ muekekeke

thn i brought it to bio class, since i cannot just leave the hamsters at a corner. n of course, thy instantly became a spotlight. frens gather around the cute little fellas n played with it, ask questions n blablabla. n now oni i noe alot of my frens actually have hamster-abusive characters. they bully the dear hamsters!! >.<

thn class started, whole class fell quiet for a moment and... squeak~~~ the sound of the spinning run-way of the hamsters started off.. n more thn half of the class turned their head to my direction!! jeezzz.. so fish.. told the hamsters to be quiet but they r not obedient, so i jz pluck off the spinning run way. n tada~ the hamsters was still running in it but it wont spin!! wakkakakakaa~ =p

sad thing is, my sis very the disagree for me to bear the hamsters. =( n so did my parents.. saying... "y bring bak OTHER animals when u're already IGNORING spikey?" T-T i did not ignore spikey!!! was juz a tiny lil insy bitty busy these days... T-T

WELL, GAVE THE HAMSTERS TO NICHOLAS, hope he'll take GOOD care of them!! grrrr.. i miss them T-T was a lil depressed when the hmasters r gone.. although i was their owner for only 3 hours. =(

here's the pic of those adorable hamsters.







~ jess ~

swing

due to sudden mood-come, i went to the park n played the swing, a thing tht i had done everyday when i was in primary skul. =] took my hp n headphone along with me.

played the songs n swung myself in the air.
first started off with the piano pieces songs, due to some fed-up-ness recently towards piano, i decided to try this way n c whether i could recall the happiness n excitement in piano, well.. it kinda worked. =]

enjoyed the peaceful song with my eyes closed,
beating the beats with my fingers,
nodding my head along with the rhythm,
wind brushes my skin,
hair follows the wind's direction, front n back n again,
satisfactions,
which was something long lost, and found, today.



enjoyment, sinking myself into melodies, without disturbance, just me n it.

~ jess ~

out for a day

first having this experience, going out with college frens in a no-class n activity day. =p went out with nic lett jojo abu chels int he first session, which is around 2pm in the afternoon. guess where we went?? to eat 'tong sui' when we're supposed to eat proper lunch. lol... coz dear lett n jojo were bising-ing to eat tong sui, so off we go~ keep stopping lett not to drink ice.. such a tough job. lol. then aftering taking a walk in leisure mall, we went to eat porridge, near my house. was awesome!! i super like the porridge there, so statisfying. =D lett n jojo liked it!! =p

next session was with nic lett vic ilex and yancy + her sis. went up to snowflake after the long ride in the car. @.@ ate the best sellers again just to get the chop. =p ate alot of ice again.. but it was tasty tough. =D
then wanted to go for a pool session, but its full.. so we went asia cafe n sit there to discuss our next destination. ended up nic n vic eating again. @.@ really salute... n nic eating the omelet with green chilli padi!!! wakakakakakkaka!!!! not long beans but chili padi all over it, n he still can manage to finish ALL!! he rocks!! hahahahah

then we went up to victor's house, nobody's home so we sit there as if its our own house. lol. n guess wat?? victor's house is SO SO CLEAN!!!!!! it really dun match his image. =p must be his mom doing the cleaning job. hehe. stuck in his room discussing every piece of his furniture, n he had lotsa medals!! oh my.. hahaha.. thn it was getting too heated up iside so we went down n had some movie session.. watch a very yeng the show(although din get to finish it) but still~ =D

for dinner we went to usj19 for 'dai chao' ate 5 diff plates of things. not bad la. =] n got laughed at my eating style again.. grrrrr.. next time dunwanna sit anywhere near nicholas chow liao... ruin my appetite.. eat oso cannot eat quietly. >.<

the ride back home, mm.. talked about quite alot of things.. bringing bak memories, asking each other how did we know each other, wat's the 1st impression, how will our future be? having quite some pillow-car-talk there. asking who'll earn the most money, will we still be tt close by then.. argh... sour T-T

well, all that i can say is, frens are forever!!
love all of u!! =D

~ jess ~

i miss prom

arghh.. prom was just 24hours ago n im damn missing it already!! >.<

i miss the times we had fun during our salsa practice. when we all mess each other up, laughing at the wrong steps we've made, shouting when we're arguing which step to go, we almost c each other everyday!! the time is 4pm to 7pm. (marked to be salsa) n it really did bond us up.

there are - june, the lovely coach, nicholas doing his chicken dance =p, joan having a hard time with her back, victor always remembering the steps perfectly, chels having a incredible memory for steps n also making ppl laugh everyday, robin who's always seeking a 'lovely argument', n horng my partner, very gud in twisting here n there and always teasing ppl in a 'good' way... i really really really miss all of it.

wat comes after that is, prom committee~~ it really feel good to work with all of u, though we had some hard times n pressures around us, still we had managed to get over it. working together with u guys are really great, for there are always ppl by ur side when u needed help. =)

n the day before prom, doing things together, setting up the ballroom.. sitting around on the floor for dinner tapao by justin, lol i felt real warm. now it makes sense that food tastes the best when there are people around .=)

im praying hard that there'll be another prom real soon, like nx year, n im not the prom committee, but having a role of a girl happily dressed up for prom, eat everything over there, sit down care freely n enjoy the performances. =]

still miss it, MORE!!!
jess

prom!!!

prom is finally over!!! yayy!!!! it was a great great night!!! =D

although we really had alot of hiccups during the whole event, but still, it ended up nice, emcee's are goood~~~ cynthia robin n joy~!! well done!! =D

ECX are AWESOME!!! their 2nd dance!! wow!!! >.< i'll try n get their performance videos!! (if i manage to find la =)

was nervous n stress for my performance, n kinda screw up but, its over~!! wohhohooho~
i'll try n upload the salsa performance video! =D

n last night the ballroom was full of lengzai n lenglui~~~ very the statisfied my eyes!! XD guys with blazers n smart looking. ladies with awe dresses n they are HOT!! hahahhahaa..

then the dance floor opens~~ here comes the couple-ish dancing~ sweeet~~~ =]
n i love the bus company!!! they rock!! went crazy in the dance floor.. hair all messed up, but i dun care!! wakkakakaka..

n finally, pictures!!

me after dressing up


me + victor


me + ilex


eugene + me


hyper rachel + jess


the rest i'll post it in my facebook~ =D
taking too long to upload the photos >.<


cheers,
jess

days before the prom

days before were so packed up with the preparations for prom.FYI, our prom is TONIGHT!! =D im excited!!! wakakakkaa.. wat will it be like??? i hope everything goes smoothly!! >.<

days ago, me nic vic latt n june went time square for the last confirmation of everything for the prom, thn settle everything. bought donute for lunch.



thn on 7th june, we had bbq session as a celebration for america's independence day!! haha. although ppl hu turned up are quite less, but still we had fun!! sang for the whole nite, eat eat and eat, talk n talk, havent been so relaxing for like weeks. >.< then after bbq, we went to visit jojoan around 10pm, coz she was having some 'sickness' (ter-sprained leg n back) hope she'll be alrite n DONT get hurt in dancing. >.<

well we have worked hard for this coming event, altough there had been some conflicts around, but we still manage to get through it. =] and this prom actually brought me closer with other fayette n sc members, which when we were still strangers to each other back then.

let's pray hard for tonite!!! *crossing fingers* >.<

lets rock the floor tonite!!!
~ jess ~

effect of lens..

im having red-eye thingy now... thanks to the lens.. T-T

wanna know y??

coz i cannot take out the damn lens.. ish... sumo putting fingers into my EYES!!! OMG!!! halfway pulling it out... but jz managed to touched them... they stick much to my eyes. =.= thn i hav to run downstairs, online, google for 'how to remove lens' >.<
n i saw how they 'pinched' out the lens.. OMG!!!!!! nid to hav much courage to do tht. T-T its like taking ur eyeball out.. arrghhh!!!

after 5min 'massaging' my eyeball... finally get the left eye de lens out. it is very.... well.. i dun feel comfortable. lol. nx on with the right eye jz seoconds thn its out.. T-T kong bu!!!

lens-phobia,
~ jess ~

contact lens!!

yay~!!! guess wat?? i just bought my FIRST pair of contact lens just now!!! hehehhee..
it cost me rm50... T-T im so broke... rm40 for the 1 pair of acuvue lens and rm10 for the solutionssss.. say bye bye to cash. >.<

then i tried to put them on lor... started with my left eye... n it wont go in. gek sei. n i spent 10min juz to get one in!! >.< but after i it was on, i feel weird, coz my eye sight was 1 way blur n 1 way clear. hahhaa, so i quickly put on the other one lor, this used up only 3min. =D im way way better thn chee wei. =p

but still blur with these lens coz i got 'san guang' >.<

wish me luck with these lens!! =D

~ jess ~

updates. =)

many things happened recently, meaningful yet lack of time to write them down. so here r the things that i've been through. =D


23th June
stayed back in college for a biology campaign, stayed till veli late... n the sky was dark already. nic was doing his board of thalassemia, i was wondering around =p
so....

i took pic wit the ballooonnssssssss. =D was scary.. afraid that it might burst when i when i lay on them. =p



then here with chels, a very special pic. =p




25th June

its the day before my dad's birthday, but since we're all busy on the exact date, we went for celebration today. went to vietnam restaurant in leisure mall. yummy!! =)

the dishes (though they're emptied) =p



family [2nd bro not here =( ]



then we went back home, n eat cake. =D

strawberry choco cake!! =D



my daddy n mommy~~




26th June

went to the sleep over in jojo's unit along with chels. =) din sleep at all.. broke my very first record. lol.

in the afternoon, went to the sports day field to set up the things. while waiting for the stuff to come, ta da~~!!

took pic with jojo~ =p






27th June

Sports Day!!!!! i was roasted under the big hot sun. >.< but overall was fun though. n thx to chee wei for being my helper. =D oh when i remove my socks, there was 2 diff colors on my leg. greatttt... @.@

after tht, followed abu jojo n chels n ilex to klang to hav bak kut teh. =) was yummy, maybe its coz tht i was hungry. =p lalala~


so that's all from my update le. =D

p/s : PROM IS COMING!!!! COMING FRIDAY!!!! =D hurry up n buy tic before the price goes up to rm90!!! =D


~ jess ~

=(

statistic's midterm is tml n i haven read a single word of it.
sob...
stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!

n my printer takda ink liao... cant even print the slides out!!!!
y is this happening to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

gonna spend the whole day studying. =(

~ jess ~