frustration

wanna cry till my tears go dry,
cry till the thought go away from my mind.
wanna scream my lungs out of my throat,
scream till i have no breathe left for myself.
wanna smash the piano with my numb fingers,
smash till my anger and frustration are gone.

yes, im very angry,
im angry at myself. im angry at my fingers. im angry at my sense of music.

tired of playing the same bar over and over again.
yet never getting it right.
feddup of not getting the touch of note accurately,
always pressing unnecessary notes.

n they never support me.
always telling me that my playing is bad, noisy, annoying, disturbing.

so, i play horrible music. well done.

~ jess ~