moody finals

as usual, its time for finals, n as usual, i'll have to study kao kao... sleeping late, eyes locking on the textbook, tension, stressed, no entertainments.. blablabla

everyone seems busy, no more playing basketball, no more hanging out... there's just books books and books.. ( its kinda like my fault actually lol) well guys, im quite guilty for going bak home so early these few days.. but the finals r really driving me insane.. scheduled myself to finish 3 chapters within a day, but what turns out was i could only finish 10 pages... wth?!?!

realized that my time will not be enough, and i cannot get anything lower than B... which means i'll have to score at least 80% for every subject.. T-T fell like banging the wall.... how come i never had this kinda feeling in the 1st sem???? i feel like i will fail each n every subject.. all the subs i took this sem was alll new things in my life.. eco, accounting, marketing, management n intercultural communication.

well coz i've nvr paid much attention in class, it makes me feel like, wat had i learn this sem??? 3months of classes is like... all in a blank memory.. a fren asked me to teach him marketing (in a diff college) and i answered him, i have no idea wat marketing is all about. felt ashamed with my stupid answer.. its like i've wasted all the time n money i spent for class..

what i promised to myself is, i'll have to be a hardworking student nx sem. there will not be any last minutes assignments, studies n so on. but also i wanna live college life to the max!! arghh... what for a bookworm with books but not laughs??? its like a puppet with books, being souless n empty. can the words from the textbooks help in out career?? i dont noe... but wat i heard from experienced white collars are, working is another start for everything. new colleuges, new boss, new environment n blah blah blah.

but well, what i have to do now is finish my studies. n how can i do that?? by doing well in my finals.. oh well, im jz a typical teenager, procrastinates whenever i get the chance to. =p n by the way, im thinking of buying a new hp. does k660i sounds good?? comments plz. arigatoh

STUDY WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT IN FINALS!!!

signed,
jess