dun worry be happie =)

just got home and managed to finish bathing when i got a call from my fren. she's having problems in her relationship, n its already quite a long time.. yet they r still not stable.. this fren of mine had cried n cried so many times for this guy,when she cried in front of me, i really dunno what to do but try to drag her outta the sorrow.

she used to be a happie n cheerful gal, everytime making each of us laffing out loud, bringing happieness to us. but now, she's putting up a happie mask, n i dun like it... i feel like peeling off the fake mask of hers, dunwanna let her carry all the sorrows by herself, wanna be there for her, at least there'll be a pair of ears willing to be rented. im not good in relationships, so i dunno ways to solve, n i dun think my suggestions will be good.. so i shall remain quiet in front of her.

again, if its too sanfu, y not just let go? if he dont wanna appreciate u, u'll find another guy thts willing to do so. but if u insist to carry on, i'll support u.

so, my fren, im here ok?
dun worry be happie =)

a thought n a feeling

there was someone that i liked for quite a long time, but then it goes like this, like him, then forced myself not to like him, after that like him again, n this repeats again n again. he's a nice guy, treats everyone very friendly n kind n gentlemen n so on. talented, clever, smart, tall, know how to make others happy, wont go over the line, will be there to help with all his might, well manners, n a lot more.

but maybe im always scared n worried to take the closer step, so i never told him about anything about this, just treated him as a best friend. so turtle of me... lol.. and this is when i decided to let go. maybe its that he treats everyone as nice as he treats me(or even better), sumtimes it makes me jeolous =p but people says, friends are forever and couples or for a period or so.... so bless me to be good friends with him forever. =) cheers~

~ jess ~

mommy n daddy 520

Borrowed a dvd from a friend yesterday, titled as "money not enough 2", sounds familiar?? maybe its because that its in the cinemas lately... =)

lets see, its a singapore-made movie, but not bad in quality n moral. hahax. the plot is something like 3 sons who r supposed to take good care of their old mother, have gone feddup in taking care of her, and treat as if she's a burden and kicking her here and there, and they even let her to sleep in the KITCHEN FLOOR!!! curse them.. and when they tried to dump her in the old folks home, she fainted n was sent to the hospital. due to the large amount of hospital fee, they discussed and ended up to burn a 'fu' to let the mother pass away ( according to chinese believes, 'fu' is useful n treating souls n spirits). but at last they still cant manage to let it burn, it was just halfway then the brothers put off the fire with their palms. at the same time, a daughter of one of the brothers had an car accidEnt, which leads her to be in need for the same blood type as her grandma(the old mother), the mother of the daughter doesnt care of the brothers' intention to stop n took the only 2 packages of rare blood type away. the arguments among the brothers n the young mother had flowed into the old mother's ears, with disappointments and to save her granddaughter, she pulled out the tube ( the only thing that is keeping her alive) n died. =(


it appears to be a touching movie to me, which made me cried n cried n cried.. (not only me, so did my friends!! =p) in reality, people tend to forget ( or maybe purposely forget) to concern bout their parents, which raised us up till now, and yet still do in the future.

sacrifices made from parents are not all seen by us, maybe they wanted us not to feel bad? or not to get worried?

elements of happiness are around us, its up to our choice to grab hold of it anot. if u want it, grab it tightly and do not let go, once u let go, it'll get further n further from u, or u'll be lazier n lazier to held up ur hands to grab them, or u'll get too shy to get them, and so on.

lets ask ourself, how long had it been since you last hugged or kissed ur parents? to me, it was a very long time ago, when i was in the lower forms i guess. n how long had it been since u going out with your parents to pasar, or to accompany them to somewhere? hmmm...

well, just wanted to say, appreciate everything u've got. do not wait till the time they'd turned into a 'past tense' thn only u sit there n cry n say u're sorry n say u feel regretful.

~ jess ~

new phrase

i just got hold of a new phrase today, a phrase that could lead me to a 'scold people without using foul language' level (well its not like i use alot of foul words.. just a few minor ones =P)

"intellectually below average"

well, in pasar language, it simply means..
stupid
stupiak
stupak
bodoh
'ben dan'
'sha gua'
baka
n dot dot dot

so people, remember this phrase!! you can find it useful someday... =p


~ jess ~

cally's birthday

22nd of September, a day when cally was born~~ hahaha.. what a nice start~ well, as shown in the title, it's cally's birthday, n what as a friend can do for her is >>>> CELEBRATION!!!! hurray!!! now let me start from the very beginning of the day...

- 9am -
got off from house n reached segi, drove my car into the carpark, n that was when i remembered that i have to go casa (segi's hostel) instead of segi, i was like SHIT!!!SHOULD I REVERSE?? but i had already passed the guard house.. which means that i'll have to pay rm1 to get outta there and come back here at noon.. calculation comes in and.. the answer is i should just park my car inside segi XD then WALK to casa.. =(
process of walking to casa.. with the BIG HOT SUN on top of me, tanning every exposed skin of mine (which brings me darker n darker), then a call came in..

nick + ilex : r u on ur way here (casa) ??
jess : yes...
nick + ilex : look up!!!
jess looks up towards the eye soring sun... n c... NOTHING
nick + ilex laughing : we can see u!! can u see us??
jess looks up AGAIN but still ended up in NOTHING
nick + ilex laughing AGAIN
jess cuts the call n continued the walking process... walk walk walk walk walk... STOPPED, look up again to casa, n find NOTHING n continued to walk. (which made ilex n nick laughed again.. zzzz)

reached casa finally, escaped from the SUN n got to yion's unit. greeted, talked crap, made myself comfortable, n started off to work!!
together with nick, yion, jean n ilex, we boiled eggs, put the red red powder thingy, n yion made the egg red, who sacrificed her hands by touching the RED mixtures.. =) n while yion was reddening the eggs, nick jean n me WALKED to giant under the BURNING SUN to buy some steamboot materials. it was fun shopping with friends.. very different from me shopping with family, that's my comment of the trip to giant. XD bought things, paid n ciao.

got bak to yion's unit, dealing with those red red eggs, drawing our faces on those red red eggs, n took alot of pictures of the red red eggs =) i love the egg with my face on it so much!!! couldnt make myself to EAT it in the end.. ( friends commented that the face on the red egg looks alot like me lol)

then here comes the bad part, cally sms me n made me lied... i feel so bad =(
cally : where r u?
jess : at home, haven go out yet.
cally : i saw ur car in segi wor??
jess : hehehehhehee
cally : where r u???
jess : actually im in summit doing sumthing la. (when actually im in casa >.<)
- few min ltr -
cally : u're in summit where? im in summit liao
jess : im doing sumthing, later oni go find u la... ( i feel so bad T-T)
cally : ok la.. later eat lunch together
jess : okay

the thing that made me to lie was, the steamboot party is supposed to be a SURPRISE. i had told so much lies today.. T-T cally!!! itz all ur fault!!!! =P n ohya, the blindest lie = told by nick = my tyre punctured... LOL n that made cally worried so much!! NICK, U'RE SO BLACK HEARTED!!


- 12.30pm -
got back to segi, n meet up with cally separately. nick n me 1st, then oni ilez jean n yion=) we're so good in acting XD had lunch, talked, laughed, n off to class. time FLIES in class =D n class is finished. XD


- 4pm -
justin n victor were given responsibilities to guard n accompany cally =) well a few others went back to casa n prepare for steamboot~ meanwhile, cally n the gang played basketball to makan masa. =p which made cally abit unhappie, coz she miunderstood that playing basketball = celebrating her burfday n yet there was oni a few people =p =p

we prepared cincau, tomyam soup, ikan pilis soup, n the fishballs n foods while they were playing basketball downstairs. n got a sms by ilex which said that cally is already abit moody, n that made nick so HAPPY. XD his theory says : moody now n happy to tears later. LOL


- 7pm -
steamboot is READY!!!! practised the way to welcome cally ( to giv her a big surprise), and made us all 10+ people jump to the door side everytime the doorbell rang. LOL. n follows with dissapointments each time we open the door until the last time =p which cally finally turns up. n off we sang>> happy birthday songs with versions of eng, chinese, cantonese, malay n even a christmas song came up XD n that made cally cried!!!! HOHOHOHOHOHO

eugene came by =) coz he misunderstood the steamboot situation.. hahaha.. he tot it was in a restaurant, where it actually's in yion's unit =p

eat eat eat eat eat, rebut rebut rebut rebut, happy moments flies~ played the 'huh?? mat yeh??" game, n ties a tissue-ribbon on every losers hair.. i kena.. T-T when i thought i wont @.@ actually 80% of the participants kena.. so it isnt any big deal at all.. HAHAHAHA.. then we took out the champaign(dunno spelling correct anot) kekekke, n cally opened it with a POP outside the window. cups filled up, n people gather ina circle and.............. YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM SINGH!!!!!! hahahhahaha, we did that 3 times, n purposely called chelsie to 'chuan' XD. how lame of us.. XD after that we fInally take out the RED EGGS~~ ^^V n asked cally to guess which egg is who's.. hahaha.. n even scared her that if she guessed wrong of 5 among 17, she'll have to eat ALL the 30 eggs.. HAHAHAHAHHA yet mine was not a problem for her to guess AT ALL.. thx to nick.. zzzz

we video-ed up a 'speech' of cally, her views towards this surpised party, touchingness, friendshipness, happiness n so on. =p how i hope she cried at that moment.. >.< ( so bad of me=p)

then helped around to tidy up the place, which is already in a big mess, n ciao-ed HAHAHA end of the day~~~ lalalalla~~

had a great day!! n i hope cally did too!!! =D


Appreciate friendships that u own, appreciate what friends have done to make u happie, even if u're not really that happie, at least u know their effort. Friends are always there for each other, and never abandon any of them, not even if u have the chance to do so (which appears to be alot in life). FRIENDSHIPS 4EVA!!

~ jess ~

death??

Minutes ago, a good friend of mine asked me through messenger, a shocking yet will-be-a-fact question, why would someone speak of these questions? i wonder..

{ Conversation }

friend : IF one day i died, will you come to my funeral? no matter where r u, what r u doing..

me : sure i'll go, but i need someone to inform me la..


come to think of it, how many of my so-called friends will come to mine? i doubt that most of us will still be in contact.. or some will just remember who am i when they're reviewing their contact list.. hmmm.. but im sure that there'll be friends n relatives n family who will turn up?? gosh.. y am i cursing myself..?? @.@

well, with me being just a teenager, i still cant imagine the day comes to me. when will it come?? how will it come? god knows.. what i see from movies n books, people tend to have flashbacks at the moments of their death.. but with only seconds to hold, could it possibly be enough?? wouldnt FEAR take place instead og memories?? hmmmmm.... who knows?

but IF, i really can manage to revise all my memories, which scene will appear before me?? me being with my family? or me hanging out with my friends? or time spent with my beloved spikey? or things that i've done wrong? or things that i had wished to be done but in the end not-done?

conclusion = do what i have to do now!!! have no regrets!!! go for the thing i wished for!! go get it!! yeah!! =D