a visit to grandma

its saturday, n i was sleeping, mom woke me up, to go bak hometown n pay a visit to my sicked grandma. she entered the hospital.

reached melaka, went into pantai hospital with masks on, n found grandma's room. but she wasnt there. so we waited outside the room.

waited n waited.. n sudd i saw my cousin sister walking in, n a nurse pushing a wheel chair, on that wheel chair, sat an old lady. she looked familiar, so i took a 2nd glance at her, more familiar, at the 3rd glance, i recognize she's my grandma. n i nearly couldnt recognize her!! her hair.. was alot shorter n straighter, which made her look thinner. n the thing was that, she was expressionless.. mouth slight opened, head slightly held high n abit towards the right side. here eyes wasnt looking, its like... shes not looking, but staring into empty spaces. the look she gave really scared me, i signalled my sis beside me, she was looking and my cousin sis, thn i stand she followed, i called out to grandma oni my sis knows that it was grandma.

n to my relief, grandma still recognize us, she called our names without hesitations. but she didnt smile. =( n so she was quiet, unlike usual, asking how are we or so. maybe she's too tired.
she's still on the wheel chair, waiting for the nurse to clean the bed. n i looked at her from behind.. she looked tired, pale, not happy. n my mind came across a thought.. wat if she's going soon??? the mask i was wearing was making me breathing hot air, and i think thts the prob tht made my eyes went tearing up easily. so then i quickly went outta the room, stayed at the lounge to clear up thoughts.


later, i went bak in. she laid on the bed, talking bout my another grandmother, which also had a stroke, then she was saying who'll go first. =( that's really depressing.

here i pray that, grandma gets better soon. n she must get better.

sincerely,
yuhui