努力并不是一切

终于到了这一天，终于要面临最大的考验。
为了准备这论文的Presentation，
已让我整整两天都睡不好，频频作噩梦，
程度严重到我甘愿起床也不想继续睡下去。

然而，当我那么用力的练习，
还是达不到老师的要求。
她给的评语让我想去撞墙，
我站在原地静静地听着评语，
时间长达三分钟。
简直像一世纪将久。

原本，很期待这最后一项功课的结束，
原本，以为一旦结束了我就一定会很开心，
开心到可以边跳舞边唱歌的那种程度，
但，我并没有。

我只是呆呆的在课室里等待，
等待我可以消化那些评语的那一刻。

不过，现实终归现实，
我相信以我了不起的失忆症能力，
很快就可以摆脱这阴影。

总之，还是要不停的努力，直到成功为止！！
人生啊，总是充满了挑战，
这才能活得是真实！=）

救命。。。

我自言对presentation 很没有信心，
说话会咬舌头，结巴，
简直烂到透顶。

更惨的是，
我视线只要一对到观众，
脑袋就会一片空白，
接下来要说的话全都忘光光。

老师还一直强调要有说服力，
拜托我看观众都有问题了还给我说服力嘞。
晕~~~

这几天只好日日夜夜对自己说话咯。
要加油~~~~
祝我好运吧!!
>.<


Jess

散步

十点钟，终于决定要独个儿去夜市走走。
头发没整理，换上衣服，带了钱包，电话和耳机就出门了。
我脚步很快的越过那暗巷，可能是音乐是快歌的关系，我很快就抵达夜市。
东看看，西看看，没舍新鲜东西，买了饮料又打回到府。

可能走累了，步伐慢了下来。
抬头看了看，走在前面的，是一家大小。
妈妈牵着小孩，过了一阵，爸爸弯下腰背小孩。
好幸福哦，小时候的我也是将的吧？

低下头看着昏黄的道路，
晚风徐徐吹来，
思绪又飘到太空，
有些想念某人，
又有些感慨。

打拼了二十个年头，
得到的要珍惜，
得不到就放手，
只是生命中的路人来来去去，
不知道以后会怎样呢？


Jess

背叛

看着网络文章，让我想到以前不开心的事。

好吧，以前算我不懂得分寸，不会拿捏做人该有的伪装，所以被摆了一道。

现在想回去，那场景真的很伤人，很不知所措。
当一起共事的朋友，把你围着一圈，
纷纷拿所有的XX小事轮流指着你，再坚强也不能忍受吧？
就连老师都出动了，全都摆成一道线，攻击你。

而你，一个人孤军作战，
只能麻木地退到墙边着接受所有指责。心凉啊。。

朋友，不是该在你做错事时，纠正你吗？
不是，他们是把所有错事累积在一起，然后在后面猛力插刀。
这是我那时的“朋友”。

谢谢你们，
让我早早见识人与人间利益冲突，
让我早早在冷血的环境作准备，
让我知道，人是要戴上面具的。

不过，也谢谢你们，
让我能清楚分辨，谁才是真正的朋友。
因为，幸运的我，现在知道我拥有着最真心的朋友。

YH.

Distance?

Somehow i feel the more senior we grow, the less time we have together. It cannot be denied that heavy assignments are one of the factor, major ones indeed. For me I'd need to stay home n crush my head into the assignments to get it done. So i won't get much time spent together. Another thing is, my time table is too freaking-ishly nicely fit. I'd only have 2 days class. like WTH??? 2 days?? then wat's for the other 5 days?? i guess the 5 days is just pure rotting, or working, or hanging at home.

Then, time flies, and we end up having less linking bonds. Or maybe i'm the only one with tonnes of free time. too much free time to think about nonsense, and to write this piece of junk too. Or maybe the truth is, by the time we graduate, we'd fling our head away and say goodbye. gah this thought is bugging me. i dont know y am i even writing this. just gonna keep babbling until i feel sleepy.

Ohya, tml i hav morning class. which, i'd only get to meet them in a more united-ly way. lets see if tommorow's gonna be a good day. i really hope its gonna be a good day.

Jess

心语录 #4

不管生活怎样打击你，摧毁你，恶整你，

有一件事你无论如何都不能放弃，

就是要一直保持开朗的笑容。

Be happy always,
Jess

Spooky

There's some spookily huge black recycle bag outside my house. and it's fully occupied inside, and it's located at just some seriously weird spot. not at the garbage area, but at the roadside.

i went out in the morning, a neighbor passed by n asked if i could report to police about that black bag. he said it might be a corpse coz it smells badly. and that bag is really big enough for a person's body. gahhh.. in dilemma, nobody's home. later i shud tell my dad to deal with it.

SO SPOOOKY!!!!! I had chills on my back whenever i looked at that bag. no courage to open it n check it for myself. will update on u guys. hope its not a corpse. *crossing fingers*

what a way to start a Monday,
Jess Lim