Melody of Life

大新年

2012-01-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

又是一年一度的新年啦！！总觉得今年新年来得好快，还没准备好迎接它就到了。

因为工作关系，除夕团圆饭没能吃到。虽然已经很尽力得赶回家，可家人竟没等我开饭。亏我还拼命要求上司让我break两个钟，还特地赶回家吃饭再赶回去做工。回到家竟然全部人都吃完了，在睡觉。不知是我太重视这顿饭还是怎样。爸爸看我回来了，去叫醒妈妈让她陪我吃饭。很感谢爸爸妈妈，虽然吃饱了还特地陪我吃，现在想起还眼睛湿湿呢！有说不出的感动。。=')

然后初一到啦，今天两点才回到马六甲，实在太赛车了。然后就像赶场似的去拜年。亲戚看到我都说我变了，变得成熟了，好像出了社会的样子。可能是发型关系吧。一个两个都叫我去做模特儿。不过，爸爸不给我也没办法。XP

看到疼我的姨丈，就大谈特谈起来。我告诉他，我以后要有一台BMW。
他说很好，有能力买一台是好事。可是，如果有能力让别人送一台BMW就更厉害了。
他这句话让我深思啊，很有道理的一句话。提点了即将出社会的我，人际关系能给人影响很大。自己好自为之。

过后终于和久违的表兄弟见面。很想念以前我们一起闹着玩的日子，总是胡混在一起。现在长大了，要玩得颠也有点困难啊。

我们来期待未过完的信念吧！要快乐噢！！=D

很老套的一句，新年快乐！！！！

Breakeven? Hell no.

2012-01-16T23:54:00.003+08:00

Beautiful cover for the song. Credits to Chelsie.

Not gonna trap myself anymore,
not when the sky is so broad,
not when the future awaits.

Thank you. Good bye. =)

假设，如果。

2012-01-12T21:27:00.001+08:00

其实，
可能，
或许，

失恋，
没什么大不了。

可能，自己被逼身在其中，
只能无力地在伤痛里徘徊。

可能，自己下意识地夸大所有感官，
让所有人事物影响自己。

或许，
只是想籍着它们来重温所有甜蜜回忆。

又或者，只是自己跟自己过不去，
偏偏就是要转牛角尖。

可是，如果这些“可能”都是真的话，
就不会有人哭泣了。
就不会有人心碎了。
就不会有人伤心了。

如果不是真心喜欢，就不要随便踏进去。

圣诞夜

2011-12-25T02:50:00.000+08:00

圣诞除夕，完全没节目。两个supervisor打来问我要不要代班，很多员工放鸽子。虽然很缺钱，但我不想把圣诞花在罚站上。所以很婉转的拒绝了。

到了下午，“学长和学妹”很心血来潮地计划上云顶，我们就兴致勃勃出发了。没塞车，可是上面真的是够力人山人海啊。到处都是人挤人。几恐怖下。不过圣诞气氛超好，还买了个棉花糖搞赏自己，甜甜的，入口即化，棒！！！=D

到了高山当然要去吹风。山上很多浓雾，还下毛毛雨。真是浪漫的雨中漫步，还有冷风吹来。头发，冷衣和布鞋也湿到完。不过风景和气候很像外国，就当作我们在外国旅行咯~满爽的说~~！XP

今年圣诞夜，应该也会很棒。
现在，正在等着圣诞老人爬进我的窗户。因为没有chimney. 然后送我礼物~！！XD

祝大家圣诞快乐！！！开开心心和家人和朋友渡过吧~！！！ =）

FINALSSS

2011-12-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

Gonna start the first paper for finals tomorrow~ and I'm not done with the studies yet. Been slacking so much this sem, and it's the first time that i need to manage both work and finals at the same time. What's more to it, is to fall sick. Flu, sore throat, cough and sore feet. Plus PMS and stomachache. been cursing the stupid timing of everything, yet still need to shut up and continue studying.

Predict few days of lack of sleeep, hope this won't worsen my immune system. roarr!!
Finals, im gonna pin you down like a boss!!!!

Short break from study,
Jess

^^

2011-12-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

First time ever I've operated the air asia site, really terribly stressed out. been stucked for ages in the waiting room, been so blur clicking this and that in the flight selection, but it's all been worth it. At least i think so. Spent a total of 5 hours guarding at the website, been kicked out countless times.

still, turned out to booked not-so-nice flight for our Krabi trip. need to split into 2 groups to go, sad case. thought of going there together gether happily and after, but gonna go on 2 different days. HOWEVEEEEER. Even if it turned out like that, im gonna make it a happy trip still. I'm sure when we're all together, we'll create happy moments and memories to cherish. =)

Another trip to Bali with my dearest family~~!! hehehehhee, heard that it's an extremely nice place to chill and relax~!! i cant stop grinning!!! XDD nvr step outta the country for... more than 10 years!!! gonnna break the record now!!! ps, need to get myself a passport!!

Well, finally managed to get myself a ticket to Krabi and Bali next year~!! This will be my Christmas present~!!! <3<3

ps, just sharing my happiness and excitements, not meaning to brag or anything ok. =)

Short Term Memory

2011-12-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

I seriously think that this sickness is getting worse by days. At first, it was about forgetting little little things that could be forgiven.

Then, i went for MCD, at the cashier counter, i totally forgot i handed over the RM50 note, and i kept insisting that note was just right in my hands, but it suddenly went missing. I even doubt the indian guy in front of me took it without me noticing. And i started to panic and keep asking 'did you see my rm50 note?' all around. then 1min later, the cashier handed me the changes, n i smacked my head.

Today, i was working at a booth, and there's no pockets in my uniform to put my hp. So, i keep bringing it around, checking stock, moving stocks, taking ice etc. Then, i wanted to text my supervisor on the progress, and booom. i cant find my phone anywhere, on the booth, in the cabinet, in my bag. NO WHERE TO BE FOUND. IT'S STOLEN!!! I acted like a crazy fellow for 5whole minutes, then i went up to the promoter beside me n asked for her phone. after explaining my phone got stolen, the corner of my eye glanced at the teddy bear hanging on my phone. the phone. covered. in. papers. on. the. booth. x(

God, help me get rid of thisssss thinggggg!!!!! =(

Jess

#-#

2011-12-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

开玩笑总要有个底线。
越过了，就不再只是个玩笑了。

有些过份的玩笑真的能伤到一个人，
只是那人不说,默默收在心里，别人也不会知道。
在不知情的状况下，就继续猛插血箭。

这次，超过了。
所以，真的真的请拿捏好玩笑的分寸。

努力并不是一切

2011-11-25T22:48:00.001+08:00

终于到了这一天，终于要面临最大的考验。
为了准备这论文的Presentation，
已让我整整两天都睡不好，频频作噩梦，
程度严重到我甘愿起床也不想继续睡下去。

然而，当我那么用力的练习，
还是达不到老师的要求。
她给的评语让我想去撞墙，
我站在原地静静地听着评语，
时间长达三分钟。
简直像一世纪将久。

原本，很期待这最后一项功课的结束，
原本，以为一旦结束了我就一定会很开心，
开心到可以边跳舞边唱歌的那种程度，
但，我并没有。

我只是呆呆的在课室里等待，
等待我可以消化那些评语的那一刻。

不过，现实终归现实，
我相信以我了不起的失忆症能力，
很快就可以摆脱这阴影。

总之，还是要不停的努力，直到成功为止！！
人生啊，总是充满了挑战，
这才能活得是真实！=）

救命。。。

2011-11-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

我自言对presentation 很没有信心，
说话会咬舌头，结巴，
简直烂到透顶。

更惨的是，
我视线只要一对到观众，
脑袋就会一片空白，
接下来要说的话全都忘光光。

老师还一直强调要有说服力，
拜托我看观众都有问题了还给我说服力嘞。
晕~~~

这几天只好日日夜夜对自己说话咯。
要加油~~~~
祝我好运吧!!
>.<

Jess

散步

2011-11-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

十点钟，终于决定要独个儿去夜市走走。
头发没整理，换上衣服，带了钱包，电话和耳机就出门了。
我脚步很快的越过那暗巷，可能是音乐是快歌的关系，我很快就抵达夜市。
东看看，西看看，没舍新鲜东西，买了饮料又打回到府。

可能走累了，步伐慢了下来。
抬头看了看，走在前面的，是一家大小。
妈妈牵着小孩，过了一阵，爸爸弯下腰背小孩。
好幸福哦，小时候的我也是将的吧？

低下头看着昏黄的道路，
晚风徐徐吹来，
思绪又飘到太空，
有些想念某人，
又有些感慨。

打拼了二十个年头，
得到的要珍惜，
得不到就放手，
只是生命中的路人来来去去，
不知道以后会怎样呢？

Jess

背叛

2011-11-03T10:31:00.000+08:00

看着网络文章，让我想到以前不开心的事。

好吧，以前算我不懂得分寸，不会拿捏做人该有的伪装，所以被摆了一道。

现在想回去，那场景真的很伤人，很不知所措。
当一起共事的朋友，把你围着一圈，
纷纷拿所有的XX小事轮流指着你，再坚强也不能忍受吧？
就连老师都出动了，全都摆成一道线，攻击你。

而你，一个人孤军作战，
只能麻木地退到墙边着接受所有指责。心凉啊。。

朋友，不是该在你做错事时，纠正你吗？
不是，他们是把所有错事累积在一起，然后在后面猛力插刀。
这是我那时的“朋友”。

谢谢你们，
让我早早见识人与人间利益冲突，
让我早早在冷血的环境作准备，
让我知道，人是要戴上面具的。

不过，也谢谢你们，
让我能清楚分辨，谁才是真正的朋友。
因为，幸运的我，现在知道我拥有着最真心的朋友。

YH.

Distance?

2011-10-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

Somehow i feel the more senior we grow, the less time we have together. It cannot be denied that heavy assignments are one of the factor, major ones indeed. For me I'd need to stay home n crush my head into the assignments to get it done. So i won't get much time spent together. Another thing is, my time table is too freaking-ishly nicely fit. I'd only have 2 days class. like WTH??? 2 days?? then wat's for the other 5 days?? i guess the 5 days is just pure rotting, or working, or hanging at home.

Then, time flies, and we end up having less linking bonds. Or maybe i'm the only one with tonnes of free time. too much free time to think about nonsense, and to write this piece of junk too. Or maybe the truth is, by the time we graduate, we'd fling our head away and say goodbye. gah this thought is bugging me. i dont know y am i even writing this. just gonna keep babbling until i feel sleepy.

Ohya, tml i hav morning class. which, i'd only get to meet them in a more united-ly way. lets see if tommorow's gonna be a good day. i really hope its gonna be a good day.

Jess

心语录 #4

2011-10-19T10:13:00.001+08:00

不管生活怎样打击你，摧毁你，恶整你，

有一件事你无论如何都不能放弃，

就是要一直保持开朗的笑容。

Be happy always,
Jess

Spooky

2011-10-17T09:24:00.000+08:00

There's some spookily huge black recycle bag outside my house. and it's fully occupied inside, and it's located at just some seriously weird spot. not at the garbage area, but at the roadside.

i went out in the morning, a neighbor passed by n asked if i could report to police about that black bag. he said it might be a corpse coz it smells badly. and that bag is really big enough for a person's body. gahhh.. in dilemma, nobody's home. later i shud tell my dad to deal with it.

SO SPOOOKY!!!!! I had chills on my back whenever i looked at that bag. no courage to open it n check it for myself. will update on u guys. hope its not a corpse. *crossing fingers*

what a way to start a Monday,
Jess Lim

=)

2011-10-10T19:34:00.011+08:00

So the thing is, i got a job to "tour guide" japanese kids around KL, and they are high school students!! Super exciting!!! you know??? it's like they come out from the comic books i used to read. XP It turned out that they are quite limited in English, and I'm quite limited in Japanese too... we spent the whole day having riddles. >.< Buy boy were they CUTE!!! especially when we cant communicate, they will discuss in japanese first, then only turn to face me and try to talk to me.

There's one guy here that looks alot like a friend of mine. guess who!! =)

They're having McD~!! Arent they cute???

3 of these girls, simply love them~!! <3

The girls gave me these~!! kitty and bears~!! ^^V

Finally bought this~!! Been longing to try you sticky!!!! =D

Wait for updates guys~!
Jess

@.@

2011-09-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

已经开始有些许反感，
开始越管越宽了，
不知他在想什么，
不知我要什么。

不知道这样子对不对，
这是浪费大家时间吧？
其实。。。其实，
我知道不对，应该停止了吧。

一开始，就已经打错特错。
也许及时踩刹车，还能救吧。

雨天

2011-09-17T17:16:00.000+08:00

我是爱情白痴，不会表达，不会感受，不会分辨。

别人一直以为我很厉害，其实我很笨。

我学不会付出，不为什么，只是怕受伤，很鸵鸟吧。

迷迷糊糊的在迷宫里兜来转去，搞得我头都晕了。

有时想想，算了吧，不是我的就不是我的。

当朋友也很好呀，至少关系不会搞僵。

人呀，要看开点，世界会更美好。

心语录 #3

2011-09-10T17:02:00.001+08:00

清醒时，
可以很疯癫，
可以语无伦次，
可以扮到一副无所谓的样子。

一旦醉了，
就会变得异常安静，
会想要一个人呆着，
而自己编的白色谎言，
失去了意义。

心语录 #2

2011-09-10T16:56:00.003+08:00

以为爱情像火车，
这班车不搭，
可以等下一班车。

可你不知道的是，
刚刚错过的，
就是未班车了。

心语录 #1

2011-09-10T16:55:00.001+08:00

当一个人肯花时间认真地和你传简讯时，请你一定要珍惜这个人。

L

2011-08-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

Tonight's gonna be a lonely night.
Nobody's home, the usual gang of friends went back hometown.
Even if i wanna go out, i dont think i have enough cash to entertain myself.

Just plainly stuck at home, been lying on my bed since 12pm, btw the time now is 7.18pm. Sometimes i think i have a really healthy waist, being able to stretch for such long hours.

Anyway, tonight is just me and myself again. nights peeps. =)

=)

2011-08-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

Always stay strong enough to smile.
call it the only existing weapon that's available.

smile it off, it'll go away.
smile it off, nobody can harm you.
smile it off, be happy by yourself.
just, never forget to smile. =)

='(

2011-06-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

今天哭了三次，不知道还会不会有第四次。
连哭都要忍着忍着哭，太难受了！！
真是遇到瓶颈了这次。好想逃避，可是时间有限。我不满！！！！！！

^^

2011-06-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

有时呢，眼神的接触很重要。
或者说，眼神是最基本的交流。
没有他很难表达出我们在想什么，当然，是在没有说话的情形下。

然后呢，笑容是致命点。
他有传播快乐的能力。
你的笑可能是一个人一天里唯一快乐。
所以，多笑点吧！

再来呢，声音是独特的。
我自认有认声音的能力，只要是我朋友，我都可以认。
我觉得好听的声音是发自弯起的嘴角。
沙沙的声音其实也不错听。=）

这是我弹琴时总结的东西。请接纳！！XD

~ jess ~

"Holidays"

2011-05-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

I've persuade myself so hard to update posts here. so here's a new one!!

Been having my holidays since 2 weeks ago, but in fact, i don't feel like i was actually having all the fun and relaxing at home like i usually did. So my last paper was on a Tuesday, and on Tuesday itself i went pulau redang, almost immediately. (i'll be posting bout redang asap >.<)and that's the 3 days that i had FUN. gosh i miss the beach >..< gonna miss their laughs so much!!

so after the fair was over, i took up another job. and this was so unexpected. a primary school teacher. HA HA HA HA!!! yes go ahead and laugh all you want. i was given standard 1 and 2 classes to handle. and they are of course cute, but naughty and talkative. i feel lucky to have been a prefect, got all the training i needed to control those bunch of kidsssss. i even dreamed of the kids, roar!!! need to get them off my mind!! booo!!

so here i am, preparing for the new sem, which is 2 days ahead. i dont feel like im having holidays!!! i wanna go back to redang. i miss redang. i love redang. T^T

~ jess with her holiday ~

One Night

2011-04-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

12am driving on the road, there weren't that much of cars, so i didn't have to pay too much attention to the road. so i got my ipod earphones plugged into my ears, loud enough for the songs to flow within me.

i drove 60km/h, one of my slowest record ever since i started driving alone. wasn't bad at all. at least i get more time to think about things. i even had the thought of spending a whole night on the road, just listening to the song n having time by myself. self composing i guess.

n i just reminded myself, i got a comment from my lovely law lecturer. saying that i have language barrier. ouchh!!!! that is one knife stuck in me alright. will be finding ways to improve the bloody language. mouth lips and tongue please cooperate so i can speak fluently without those annoying uh um arrrrr laa!!! Anyway today's presentation was good. got myself a satisfying mark. they say i make funny faces during presentation, and i didn't even realize it. guess funny is in my blood, u just cant chase it away. =D

to compensate myself for forcibly printscreen the lawnotes into my brain, i went for a movie. "Just Go With It", i'd rate it 4.5/5. i just LOVEE ITT!! u can laugh as hard as u wish in there, nobody will be glaring a you. you can even sneak some tears outta the corner of ur eyes, nobody will notice it. hehe!!! n jennifer is plain PRETTY N HOT. love her eyes. =)

one day of tiredness,
~ jess ~

X。X

2011-03-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

是时候来个改变了，有些地方连我自己都看不过眼，真想把自己打醒。有时候不经意就作出伤害人的事，而且是不经过脑袋的动作反应。曾老师说过，教过，说话要经过大脑，那我说，做事更要经过大脑。在乎的事情实在是小事一件，可偏偏就看不到更大的图片，搞砸了大局。我还笑人家，自己却做不来。矛盾。苦恼。

朋友说，有些事不用说到完，有些脸色也不用作到完给人家看。把不悦的心情按压在心里，也许就能挽救一些麻烦。不过我觉得后果会是由自闭症或心脏病啦，怪不健康的！我想活个80年勒，有没有可能啊？

有个女孩，她把身边的人全都推开。结果她世界里就只剩下她。想找个人说话都难，就不再说话，结果就变成哑巴了。

不是说，只要做自己就好吗？我也想！不过有时身不由己，做人要圆滑的点好，嘴巴甜点也好，笑容甜点更好！我正在努力当中！

给我加加油吧，快要走不动了，有谁能在前面拉我一把？

在黑暗当中的心情，
~ Jess ~

淡淡咸咸甜甜苦苦

2011-03-17T20:09:00.000+08:00

淡淡咸咸甜甜苦苦。
有时候感情约淡越好，越少期望更好。
学了放弃，可是从没学会拿起。
逻辑也可以调反吗，不知道。
只知道如果知道答案就不会零鸡蛋了。
想想，有先知能力其实不错，会考虑去申请这种能力（前提有供应此能力）。
像插上了翅膀，快速穿越过往，可是翻阅速度太快，没能找到答案。
眼前一层白雾，浓到伸手不见五指，开眼睛等于没开，不如不开。
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦~~

大家好！！ =）

2011

2011-01-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

This is the first post of the year. It's abit late but it's better than never, so HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

New sem, new classes, new lecturers, same classmates. Classes are on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. And i only get to meet up with most of my friends on Thursday T^T im already missing u guys d. oh well, im already in my senior year, less familiar faces, more new faces. Everyone is already getting graduated and started working, couldnt meet up in college anymore(sad part). But anyway, it'll be my turn very soon, so, be it.

i just learned that there's this new horoscope thingy this year. There's this new star, named Ophiuchus. Here are the 'real' dates of astrological signs:

Capricorn: Jan 20 to Feb 16.

Aquarius: Feb 16 to March 11.

Pisces: March 11 to April 18.

Aries: April 18 to May 13.

Taurus: May 13 to June 21.

Gemini: June 21 to July 20.

Cancer: July 20 to Aug 10.

Leo: Aug 10 to Sep 16.

Virgo: Sep 16 to Oct 30.

Libra: Oct 30 to Nov 23.

Scorpio: Nov 23 to 29.

Ophiuchus: Nov 29 to Dec 17.

Sagittarius: Dec 17 to Jan 20.

I WANT MY OLD HOROSCOPE BACK!!!! i dun like being a aquarius... =(

Jess

Puff

2010-12-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

What did i do for the past few weeks? nothing special. its either i grow rotten with a mushroom on top of my head, or i'll be pressured for the sales from my work.

Anything special on christmas? hmmm, i worked during that time. nothing special though. was quite emo for the eve, but the xmas day wasnt that bad, although no sales for me. guess santa just wouldnt meet up with me eh? got a warm hearted call from college buddies, Mr Tee, inviting me to a yumcha session, as a celebration, though i ffk bcoz was just too tired. but it made me happy for the night. =)

didnt go for any trip in this holiday. planned a few n all tak jadi. so the 'gray heart'. if u get wat i mean. think im getting older. n older-er now. soon i'll be growing white hair outta my head. goooossshhh... then my 1 year old nephew will turn into a 20 year old kid in no time. time flies eh... time flies.. >.<

speaking of working. this is gonna sound crazy, but im going share it anyway. i couldnt go to sleep bcoz of the work. i dont know why. too stressed. too worried. lack of confidence i guess. even if i am into sleep, i'll be having nightmares about my works. so i'll turn up with a big dark circle around my eyes. even my co-workers laugh at me for being so wirehead. @.@

so the schedule is like this:
fri sat sun, work = cannot sleep = super tired + stress
mon - thur = most likely stay home n rot my lung out.
soooo niceeeee~~~~~

anyway, imma most likey pindah out for the next sem. just for the next sem. will be spending alot i guess. so i ought to work more to earn more so that i can spend more. agree?

gud news : MY SIS BOUGHT ME A DOLPHINE DOLL. a pink one. hehehehhee. a cute one. sorry victor. =) its a FISH. XDDDDDDD u must be thinking im so lucky to have this wonderful sista, but she told me to buy her another doll for her. so watya think now? lol

thats for it now. cant think of more to puff out. miao.

Jess Lim

圣诞。"快乐"

2010-12-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

有时真觉得很无奈。怎么会有人把自己的错都怪在他人身上。还把自己的说辞说得头头是道。无奈呀。。

圣诞节并没有什么了不起的，也没有什么特别的，就是365天里的其中一天。并不是说一定会很顺利地过完这一天。

小时候天真的相信有圣诞老公公，长大了就得现实一点吧！

加油！！要认真地过着每一天！

11/15

2010-11-15T21:01:00.001+08:00

今晚，我想起你了。想必你忙着打理自己的生活吧。
只想说一句，好久不见了。

11/11

2010-11-11T14:29:00.002+08:00

am busy typing. typing both in fb, fb group, fb msg, msn and typing in blog. weeeeeeeee~~ u cant blame me, im too free. waiting for class to start. takda benda nak buat. line is soooooooo slow in the library.

i ate in subway for breakfast, drank white coffee, chit chat, discussed the pros n cons of me moving out. note tht its the pros n cons for those hu live with me, no for myself. so the conclusion is; there's no pros. so called cost centered. grrrrrrrrrrr. u never know wat pros u'll get ok?? i'll prooove it!!! n i mean it!!!

ok back to my schedule, aku last minutely re-read my presentation slides, n did the presentation. lecturer said its was detailed and nice. WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. AWESOME~~ credits to my groupmates~ awesomely shaun and awesomely victor. class ends at 1.30pm. next class starts at 3.30pm.

2HOURS KOSONG. tapi nic ilex vic n yancy teman aku sama sama bored ^^v

Jess

7.34AM

2010-11-05T07:34:00.002+08:00

the time now is just as the title have shown. EARLY in the morning. no exams, no assignments, just plainly couldnt sleep. i think its my turn to have insomnia, kena infected by victor =(

everyones asleep, even my parents, who usually wake up at 6am++ for work. so anyways, im thinking how to arrange my time this semester. hectic period coming again, all those assignment due dates, presentations, you name it. not to mention im a last min person, u can imagine the stress i face. sometimes i really wanted to start an assignment earlier, but it always ended up procrastinated. i dont know why. its nature i guess.

Also, i made a proposal to my parents, one for me to move out for the next semester. since i'll be having 4 days stuck in college, might as well live there. but expenses is a problem, so i nid a clean budget before i really decide. Being a final year student is one of the main thing that urged me to move out. one thing for sure, i wont get to often see my college buddies after we graduate, coz they are all over malaysia, from johor to perak, seremban, banting. scattered perfectly. even if they stayed in KL to work, they'll be too busy handling their new life. so might as well just enjoy the bestest time for the last year.

Happy Deepavali,
Jess

@.@

2010-10-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

没有很在意，只是一下下的小小失望啦。
有时在想为什么会住得那么远，想要随时赴约都不可以。
很多原因都弄到不方便出来，那天也不知是情绪化还是不爽，就突然摆臭脸，虽然只是一下，但我相信是有人看到拉。
唉。。。理智点啦小姐，不要回到以前那个怪物浆。。
现在是胡乱的打字，想到什么就打，看回去真的什么都不明白。

不管啦，笑一笑当不知道！！

pling plang

2010-09-20T23:46:00.002+08:00

i think i just got my heart broken a moment ago. but after some time, its not really counted as one. haiseh. one down. FML. i dont like the feeling weh. go away~ shoo shoo!!

Random thoughts

2010-09-06T19:23:00.002+08:00

听着“离不开他”的时候，脑海突然闪过一些想法。
女生一定要为情所伤吗？为什么不可以潇洒的离开呢？
以后我如果将不好运，男朋友如果真的是贱男人，一定要干脆一点的分手，绝对不容许我自己乖乖的忍受。
就算很伤很难过都要走人，所谓长痛不如短痛嘛。

娃哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈。本人太喜欢胡思乱想了，这篇文章只是一些小小想法啦，朋友说到时我做到再讲。〉。〈

Friday

2010-08-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

Got my day fully packed!! Went for ice skating in the day, n the crowd over there was huge... had problem making ways for me to pass.. the GOOD NEWS is, I DIDN'T FALL!! not even once~~!! woooohooooooo~ n bad news is, my legs n feet are sore.... they're in pain.. and a little bruised. i broke my record for changing the skating shoes for 3 times!! first time, the blade cutter thing was gone, so i cant jalan. CHANGE. second time, the blade was not in balance length for left n right leg, made me wanna fall. CHANGE. third time, the right blade was too tajam, HAHA. i cant even stop, it'll make me fall oso. CHANGE. the kakak there has so much patience!!! thumbs up!! XD

at night, planned to yumcha with my kakizz, but they oni turned up at 9pm (u were all alte! =p) so i havta spend one hour hanging alone in psr mlm and leisure mall. to my surprise, it wasnt so bad at all. i was planning to go burn time in comic rental shop, but when i walk to leisure mall, i changed my direction to the "dai gei chiong". played shooting basketball thr. quite satisfying, looked around, n play some other games. alone. but not bad feel. hehehehehe~ after tht went to walk around, n the hour passed.

yumcha was great. hehehe. all were in high spirits, ada babi joanne, JJ and my new fren, xiao feng~! =) discussed mainly about ren sheng da dao li. until we havta go home. hahahaha.

got the chance to know 2 new friends today ^^V Claire + Xiao Feng. hehehehe~~!! =)

~ jess ~

Re-arranging thoughts

2010-08-24T21:07:00.002+08:00

My way of living, is to put on a smile, as if there's nothing to worry, and I don't give a damn about them. People come and go, yes that's a fact and we are all aware of that.

This moment, we are very close friends, then we had to say goodbye and separate our ways to walk forward. When we turn around to say Hello, it's like that's the only thing we can say. HELLO. BYE. Well, not to say all, but in MOST cases is that the bond will fade, and, well, life goes on.

I've known this very well, just that it stroke me again. And at a moment back there i was about to lose focus. 10 seconds of pulling back helped. What about that? Nothing. Don't put in too much, it's alright, just let it be that way. What I have to do is put on the smile, and show it nicely to everyone. =) yeap, just like that. And life goes on.

Cheers~~ =)

~ jess ~

Hebe-寂寞寂寞就好

2010-08-24T21:05:00.001+08:00

歌名：寂寞寂寞就好
歌手：田馥甄 Hebe

還是原來那個我不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼什麼都沒有早點看破才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

很棒的一首歌，真的很喜欢！！谢谢可薇的分享！！ ^^V

Holiday is Awesome~!!

2010-08-14T12:43:00.003+08:00

Hey yo everyone!!! I just finished half of my holiday, and it was awesomely fun!! Suddenly feeling unsatisfied that my precious holiday is scratched down to 9 days, 9 DAYS!! 3 weeks = 21 days - 12 days = 9 DAYS!! lol. oki ignore my whining, and lemme get started =)

Been to PD, 3D2N, so far the BEST trip i'v went to. right after that, I kept running down to subang, the frequency rate is so damn high, even my best buddy Joanne asked me why i kept running back down to subang during holidays. HAHA. i dont know too!! =p I guess i just wanted to hang out with them =) Even spent one night over there a.k.a running away from home. of course, with my mom's permission given la! And the first time in my life i went to neway at midnight. crazy bunch of people. was half asleep in there but still wanted to tahan and sing. i can call it a self abuse action.

Also spent time with my Joanne mui mui. LOL. hang out, comic, movie, lunch, dinner, yumcha, singk, pcfair along with Mr Ian and his 'family' XD Feels good talking to her, we can talk about EVERYTHING, dong nan xi bei yi qi lai~ This is some weird thing, we dont understand how we become this close, different age, different gangs of friends, but still we get along well. WEIRDDD. but nice =3

Met up with high skul friends, was a farewell for Eugene. Guess he's having fun in Iowa right now eh, kinda miss him when he's not around =( Feels good sharing things with him, sometimes discussing certain things or something, the way he thinks is uhhh.. how do we call that, unique. lol.

Anyway, i'll fully occupy my last 9 days of holiday, before i get all craze up for the classes nx sem. =)

~ jess ~

='(

2010-08-07T18:28:00.002+08:00

这种感觉真的很难受。
很生气，很想杀人，很想狠狠的折磨她。
可是又觉得很委屈，不甘心。
眼泪就不知不觉地流出来了。
为什么不可以普普通通？为什么就是要接受考验？？
很讨厌，真的很不喜欢这样。
我想离开。
真的想走。

PD Trip

2010-08-06T13:35:00.002+08:00

woooooooohooooooooo~~!! hey peeps~~ im BACK!!! =D

PD TRIP WAS GREAT, FUN, INCREDIBLE, REMARKABLE, AND AWEEESOMMEEEEE~~!!!

n im missing it right now. it made me feel like i was living with my friends, not about school or work, but juz being there with u and simply hanging out.

there's alot of surprises in this trip, i could say it is full with ups n downs =D

alrite, we were encountered with police everyday in this trip.. dont know wat luck we had la. First Bok's car was stopped by a ronda-in g police car. Chelsie and me thought tht the looks of goldfish Nic and Lala Bok made the police suspect that they are kidnapping 3 innocent child (Pei fern, Qian ting and uhhhhhhh Chee wei? dont think so). so the police asked for their headings and IC. n actually the reason is chee wei was smiling to the police officers. LOL. the first time i saw police shining siren behind us. nearly got an heart attack. lolz
the following day, we had a car crash, and we ended up in the balai polis of Port Dickson LOL. we were stuck thr for about 2hours. with great luck, we won the case (but obviously we will win lah)

next one up, the first alcohol night, more than half of the gang were down. they drank and puke. it was a mess!!! hahahahaha.. shaun our nanny was too busy settling everyone down, while chee wei was busy buli-ing the drunk ones, and our beloved raymond was busy taking ugly photos. LOL. the Survivors were Lett, Xiao yi, Bok, Chee wei, Raymond, Shaun and ME!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~ we rock!!! XD

when the sun rises, and everyone has woke up, we decided to stay for another night last minute-ly. we head for ilex hour n gosh!! her house was damnnn big n comfortable!! we had our 18SG Truth or Dare section, getting tickets to go for the extreme shows, discovering dares more than truths. lol. then later at night we had pillow talks, heartache punya story telling event. wuwuwuwuwu... n end up sleeping at 430am =)

I loved the trip, really, very muchh!! and thx to nic that fetch me home lahh~~ heheheh~ ma fan sai~ =p

through this trip, i know more of u better, silly faces and serious matters. well, i announce this trip as THE TRIP!!!

ps: pics to be seen in my facebook account~ =)

~ jess lim ~

Nimo

2010-08-01T18:36:00.002+08:00

Life is getting pretty intense lately.
Problems popping out messing up everything.
Don't know what will happen soon.
Lets pray everything will be just fine.
Hallelujah. *fingers crossed*

nimo-ing

一切都还好

2010-07-16T12:30:00.002+08:00

对，一切都还好，只是昨天小小的崩溃一下。
各位朋友们，真得不好意思，下到你们了。
其实我不知道为什么会变到将，本来没有东西的，可是当我问了将多老师后还不能时，我真的不知道该怎么办了，然后那老师过来问候，就真的BEHTAHAN了。。嗨哟。。。鱼到暴。。
我知道你们笑我像小孩子。。是的，当我拿出糖果时，我听到你们在笑。
总之，谢谢你们的体谅拉。 =）

胡思乱想

2010-07-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

也许没痛过，所以不知道幸福是什么

很多故事在身边打转

很多烦恼不能解决

很多眼泪流不完

看到的都是悲剧

是不是不去尝试，就永远不会痛？

胡思乱想上

加油！

2010-07-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

女孩，别哭了。要振作哦！

我会为你打气的。也会让出我的肩膀，虽然有点硬，不过将就一下啦！

总之，笑一笑，没有什么是过不了的！！ =）

好友上

Zzz

2010-06-18T08:25:00.002+08:00

i really dont like to be used. If u want to get her, u should do it yourself, what's the point of dragging me out?

Dude, let me tell you, it's too obvious that you're using me.

And i dont think i have the time for you. Too bad.

5 things in my summer holiday

2010-05-30T15:03:00.003+08:00

NUMBER 1

im one that loves junkfoods.
jellybeans, lollipops, potato chips, sweets, tako tako, ice creams, chocolates!! u name it. =D

so i've spent my holiday eating these. hahahhaa.
i bought chocolate bars with 6x3, and finished it within an hour. and a new bar for the second day, and finished it. n i hope i dun get diabetes. lol

____________________________________________________________________________________

NUMBER 2

i was watching dae jang geum all over again, the tradition korea drama, with lotsa cookings =D i juz love jang geum, she is awesome. LOVE HER!!! and also the male officer in it =p
muaaaawahahhahaahahha~

____________________________________________________________________________________

NUMBER 3

sometimes i just wanna rot. u know, just plainly go rotten. its good for health at times. especially after u went through too much of stress n pressure.

so its good to just stay home n goyang kaki. i mean, watch drama, anime, comic, novels, hohoho.. i haven done these in ages. n yeah, it feels good!!!

_____________________________________________________________________________________

NUMBER 4

well, i said i wanted to play piano kao kao. but in the end, ermm.. this is so dissapointing, i juz did nothing on it T-T

half of "telephone" from lady gaga, a cacat version.
practised a FIR song, named "wo men de ai", i loved that song since i first heard it. got the score ages ago, as in few years ago, but i never went playing it. the reason is plain ridiculous.

breathe deep b4 u see the reason,

> because i didnt want to ruin the song. LOL

stupid yeah i know =S but the song was so beautifully made by FIR. n everytime i play it seems to play WRONG n it doesnt please my ears. *sigh*

____________________________________________________________________________________

NUMBER 5

my lovely nephew> hong rui, is getting smarter =3
he learn to hold things, grab things, hit things, pull my hair .

i heard him saying MAMAMA~ hahahhahahaha~!!
so ADORABLE+CUTE+JUST SO CUTE!!

i cant get my eyes off him n smile at him whenever he's around. =3

_____________________________________________________________________________________

^^V
lets start my summer class happily =)

~ jess ~

人从众

2010-05-30T14:55:00.002+08:00

做回自己，最自在。
不想模仿，不想太假。
最真的，还是本性。

学会

2010-05-25T15:11:00.001+08:00

1. 学会冷血，只对对我好的人好，对某些人，简直就是浪费感情
　　
2. 学会比以前快乐，即使难过，也要微笑着
　　
3. 学会孤独，没有谁会把你当宝护着，世界总是孤单的

4. 学会坚强，其实一个人也可以活得漂亮，自己笑给自己看，自己哭给自己听
　
5. 学会忍耐，该闭嘴就闭嘴，该沉默就沉默
　　
6. 学会珍惜，知心的朋友已经不多，如果再走，就真的只剩下自己了
　　
7. 学会视而不见，恶心的东西选择忽视，厌恶的东西选择屏蔽，不会再有人让我不快乐
　　
8. 学会满足，所谓知足常乐
　　
9. 学会独立，不能再一味的麻烦别人，自己的事自己做
　　
10. 学会长大，不能再那么任性，那么幼稚，那么孩子气
　　
11. 学会认真，认真的对人，认真的对事

12. 学会慎重，不该认识的人不要认识，不该插手的事不要插手

小时 X 现在

2010-05-16T15:59:00.002+08:00

最近找回了几个小学同学，因为不同班，所以已经是断了联系。
可是通过 FB，竟然给我找到他们，也算是有缘啦。。

第一个印象，是很陌生，他们的脸似陈相识，可又不是记忆中的那张脸。也困扰了一下才敢说话。。怕是认错了人。。

结果说着说着，小时候的习惯也跟着出来。然后就是死命的回忆小时候的生活。可有些画面飘飘浮浮，不知道是想象力作怪还是真的有那么一回事。人老了拉。。记忆力也不如以前了 XD

时间真是飞得快，转眼十年就过去了。真的是十年呀。。

我要努力找回他们！替我加油吧！！加油加油!!

又甜又苦。。

毓惠

i am stuck!!

2010-05-13T08:40:00.002+08:00

im stuck in college!!!!!
for 2 hours++ long!!

n im bored!!
couldnt go to 6th floor since the teacher is teaching =S
can oni hang out in 3rd floor.. which is y im spamming my own blog now.
lol

oki, later going for lagoon.
first thing to note, MUST APPLY SUNBLOCK EVERY 2 HOURS!!
then i'll have my lunch.
mmm... then i'll finish up my works tht im supposed to finish yesterday.

hopes everything goes well today, bcoz i had a really awful morning.
so cheer me up my friends!!! =D

stuck stuck stuck stuckkkkk,
~ jess ~

SLCamp

2010-05-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

went for this camp for 3 days 2 nites. n i oni made the decision to go the day before we depart. its all the adrenaline rush. lol.

here's 10 small notes of wat i've been through:

1) got into team Alpha and made our own flag, drama and cheer. we are PACMAN. =p

2) abseiling from a 60feet high building. ehh it was a disaster T-T couldnt get myself to form an L shape. >.<

3) climbed a 10feet wall, n gone through lotsa ropes obstacle (super challenging for me lah)

4) jumped into the pool, it was quite shallow tht time, about my knee length. water was cleaner than i expected. but lotsa bugs inside >.<

5) their meal were all DELICIOUS~!! =D or maybe we're jz too hungry? =p

6) had an awesome campfire, the fire was 2-3 of my height. gigantic, n lovely. =p n HOT.

7) the stars were amazing, it could be better without lights >.<

8) build a raft by ourselves, ride on the raft, n yeah, it floated!! =D n it could hold 10+ ppl =3

9) got quite a sun burn. for being exposed to the sun too much. skin peeling off now =S

10) had a GREAT AWESOME FUN HAPPY 3 days with my team mates n frens~! =D

yes its tiring, but its worth it, worth much more than the tiredness costs. =)

tanned,
~ jess ~

2010-05-01T11:55:00.002+08:00

oki.
im determined to learn piano kao kao this holiday.

will be focusing on playing by ear of pop songs, and maybe one or two classical songs. heeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeee

just wait n see!!

oh, i havta cut my nails in order to play T-T
thts the sad thing T0T

~ jess ~

HOLIDAYSS~!!

2010-04-30T18:13:00.002+08:00

OFFICIALLY STARTED MY HOLIDAYS~~~ WOOOOOOHOOOOOO~!!

first thing i've done after the last paper was watch IP MAN 2.
it was super hyper nice~! n fun to watch
well, i admit i was abit too noisy inthe cinema, but it was all becoz i got too involved inthe movie, rite jojo? =p
ip man is NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE lol

oki then i got stuck in jam for 1.5hours to get home.
n had my long gone sleeps =D

n today, as the starting day of my holidays,
watched Fushigi Yugi The Mystery Play from 10am till 6pm. non stop.
n thts y i have my eyes sore right now. i feel like sleeping againn >.<

later i'll be enjoying foods from pasar malam, so pray tht it wont rain oki??
hehehhehehehee~~~!!!
after tht will be movie sessions~!!
no full house for puppy love pleaseee~!!

aight, i shall continue watching the anime~
buai~!

holiday MOOD,
~ jess ~

moments to remember

2010-04-23T19:31:00.006+08:00

i sat by the doorstep moment ago,
spending precious time with Spikey.

i didn't do this for quite a while, a long while,
always saying i will do this other time when i'm free.

n today, where i havent started to study tml's paper,
i simply wanted to spend time with him.

it wasnt the time that we don't have,
it's the heart that we lacked.

well, i was very much enjoying it,
spikey was super obedient today, extra bonus cute =)

i just opened the door n he came by my side,
sitting at first, after minutes of stroking his fur,
he went laying comfortably on the floor.
awwww he is just as cute as ever.

it was calming, i feel peace just by sitting there,
looking at the people walking by,
enjoying the green scenary, just to relax my eyes,
and the whether was nice, windy and smooth.

spikey even had his head lying against my ankle.
his ears was fun to play with, making different shapes n all. =p

it was so sudden my mood changed to sadness,
they said dogs can only live for 10 years.
n spikey is already 8 years old.
i cannot imagine if anything happens.
it will never be the same again. ='(

ps: my hand went black. =S

mistress of spikey,
~ jess ~

un-dust

2010-04-21T20:03:00.001+08:00

my blog had been deserted!!!!
n here i am to the rescue~!! =D

oki just some short updates.
final's in a week time.. 5 sub n i jz studied NOTHING.
oh oh i finished ALLLL i mean ALLL of my assignments =)
so productive~!! =3

n i will enjoy my holiday to the max right after my finals.
wooohoo~!!
holidays~~
cant wait~!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaahahahhahahahahhaaha

life is just great~~ =D

~ jess ~

知足

2010-03-20T16:36:00.002+08:00

看了朋友的部落格，很具影响力。
他说，要知足。就三个字，看是简单，可是又几个能做到？

可能不是很富裕，可是我有家。
或许我不能拥有所有我要的东西，可是我拥有所有我需要的东西。

我有家人，朋友陪在我身边。
在我难过的时候，总有人陪我分担。
在我开心的时候，又有人和我分享。
简简单单，就已经满足了。

我没有自己的车，可是我可以驾车。
我没有很好的琴，可是我可以弹琴。
我头脑不错，可以努力读书。
我五肢健全，可以工作赚钱。

知足了，自然而然就开心了。=）

~ jess ~

淡了

2010-03-04T20:32:00.002+08:00

快乐，是不是那一瞬间的忘却和放下？
明知道一切是假的，却把它当成真的。

是不是只要不在乎，就可以避免伤害？
如果是的话，也许冷淡就是一种自我保护。

惠

cny mode

2010-02-22T21:51:00.005+08:00

im still in cny mood!!!
n i had a very interesting cny this year!!!

went out for 5 days in a row, and each time out by morning and back by midnite.
i was exhausted!! but it was fun!!!
n i got calls from my dad each nite, now im feeling guilty for not being a good girl =X

hang out with lotsa old frens, which i haven seen in ages, n yes i missed them so much >.<

high skul mates >>

primary skul matess >>

tuition frens >>

ohya, went to the genting cny lunch buffet. it was AWESOME!!! I felt like i was some very high status person, the entrance was very huge, with red carpet and chinese lions and drums and people standing at the side to welcome u. arghhh, oh ohhh.. and it was in the grand ballroom in first world!! its NICEEE!!!!! i wanna go there again>.<
the food is awesome, go see it in my facebook picture. it is truely amazing!!

n now, its time for assignments n quiz n midterms.. say bye bye to cny >.<

~ jess ~

CNY shopping!!!

2010-02-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

i got ALOT of things from shopping today~
destination is time square plus sg wang.

and i got:
2 new tops
1 short pants
1 vincci sunglasses
1 cap
2 belts

all of the above within the budget of RM100!!!!
wahahhahahahahah~~ i feel so good =p
maybe shopping really does cure things
but it is definately TIRING!!!
legs cramp.. for walking 6hours in the place. omigod. its a good sport though =D

happie cny peeps!!!
~ jess ~

Hachiko, a dog's story

2010-02-10T10:40:00.003+08:00

i LOVE this movie!!!! LOTTTTZZZZZ!!!
n im introducing to my dear readers,
*drumrolls*
HACHIKO!!!!!

it is a very lovely story, cried so hard.
deep thoughts n touching.
n made me love my spikey even more!!!
i shall talk no more, here's the picture and trailer of it. =)

n the trailer~

he never stopped believing when everyone else did,
he never took one day off when everyone else try to forget,
to him, there's only one owner. not the family, but just the owner.

~ jess ~

exerciseS

2010-01-30T11:12:00.002+08:00

played badminton 11am-4pm.
today i got sweat =) but my shirt is still dry LOL
very cigek game, finally not lazy n started chasing the balls
good improvement~ =p
though i ended up with few bruises n pain today T-T

lunch+yumha 4-7pm
but problems r still unsolved =X
cheer up buddy!!

basketball 730-930pm
this is very interesting, verylucky to keep my nails not-broken =D
n wow, i can shoot!!! maybe its a talent XD
but sana still ada gao shou la...they all 'dai qiu' till veli super geng, sumo got turn de. salute salute.
oh n there's another shooter, 99% enter rate. =p
plus many bumps they had, concluded tht basketball is a very dangerous game =X

extreme-exercised-day,
~ jess ~

2010-01-24T10:37:00.002+08:00

just got to realised im good at hurting people.
being numb is not an excuse i know.
always thought to be someone nice,
yet thoughtlessly put the scar on.
stupid. plus idiot.

cleared,
stupid person

simple. yet crazy

2010-01-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

we sang happy birthday song in the flying swing,
we shouted the song with our voices left behind,
and the swing just kept flying in a circle,
its nuts, but its so much fun.

we gossiped and made the dares,
but the target was gone.
and left me regretted down here,
if we did it, it should be idiotic n fun.

we rolled n rolled on the bed,
left and right, up and down,
laughter rolls in together with us,
yes its dumb, but its fun.

we went to the pirate ship,
and we sang poker face in there,
with our hands in the air when we're flying down,
ohh its scary, but its fun too.

let us hold tight again,
we shall not be separated no matter what,
because with us together,
we will have the brightest smile.

~ jess ~

back to college

2010-01-08T16:38:00.002+08:00

awwww im going back to college next week.

have my classes on mon, tue and thur. so peeps, i'll be free on wed n fri~~ weeeeeeee~
ps: i'll be super free now in college~ but abit not biasa with the freedom >.<

n i need money!!! money money come to me!!! intro me some tuition jobs pleaaase n thank u~~!! wanna get the guitar fixed T-T

pps: who wanna join to jam in a studio? hehehe. finding kaki to jam.. come come~~

n yeah, new year new sem new life~ keep smiling be happie~!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

end of post,
jess

get outta my way

2010-01-04T20:31:00.004+08:00

i wanna find a way to earn great money,
i wanna try living outside by my own,
i wanna get my life full of freedom,
i wanna live my life as how i wish it to be,
i wanna get myself satisfied without looking at others black faces,
i wanna get rid of this.

n i shall do it all by myself.

i dunwanna be locked up anymore,
this just aint fair.
i hate this,
i just wanna live the way i want,
stop controlling me,
its irritating.

bugged,
jess.

ending ceremony for 2009

2009-12-31T10:15:00.002+08:00

last day of 2009
last day of my teen life
20 years old sounds old, real old
n i dont like being that old T-T
i should do something crazy today
we shall see what happens later

2009 was a great year,
i enjoyed life thus far,
i had my good friends beside me,
they listen to my complains,
and share their thoughts with me,
laugh n cry n scream along with me,
yes you, the one reading this,
thanks for giving me a good year.

i can manage to stand up for myself now,
a very good improvement.
but there's still alot to learn,
i wanna present the best me someday,
dont havta be the perfect me, just the best me,
that's all i wish for.

let's pray that we hav another happy year =)

~ jess ~

outings

2009-12-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

20th dec - Sun
got my butt heated n went down to subang to cari kaki. lol. funny me.
found yancy n yion, and head to victor's place.
the place is so damn shiny tht u couldnt find a piece of dust =.=
so we chatted gossiped n exchanged info. NICE =p
spent the day jz chatting @@
the plan to snowflake n pyramid was cancelled due to lack of time.

rushed bak to kl to hav dinner with my long distance relatives~ with my favourite cousins =D

21th dec -Mon
got the day hanging in the k-box. singing our lungs out to the max. from 1-7pm. almost died from lost of voice. =p

ohya, had the stupid idea to wear dress n made everyone scolding me T-T
SAD! but fun though =D

22th - Tue
college gang came up to cheras to watch bodyguard assassin. hehehee
had some very good idea to go trip but canceled at the end of the day T-T

23th dec - Wed
supposed to stay home for the day. n lasted until when joanne came my house n pulling me out to the k-box again T-T
din want to ffk, jz went n sang. n met some old frens working thr. not technically my fren la, but some1 i once knew lor. =)
ended up being scold. again. @@

24th dec - Thur
XMAS EVE!!!
went sunway early early morning 10am, hang out beh tahan.
did movies, lunch, shopping, dinner n countdown.
n lotsa truth came out by the night. =D
very the interesting. =p
home at 3am T-T kena scold kao kao

25th - Fri
FINALLY i stayed home =D
mission accomplished~
ate sakae sushi for dinner with family. very the nice~ =D

19/12/09

2009-12-20T20:49:00.002+08:00

this is the LAST PAPER DAY.
was cramming the essay tips into my brain for the whole morning.
here, a BIG THANKS to VICTOR SIEW!!!
without his notes, i think i'll die from info-overloading.
*clap clap clap*

n the day starts after the exam!!!

midvalley with nic the driver, vic yancy n ilex~!!
we were addicted to a certain hot topic around the globe!! been talking about tht for like..... 3 days? XD
hell lotsa CARS, n thx to my sharp eyes, i spotted sum car leaving, which successfully led us finding a place to park. =D

found jojo, helped her release some stress by eating noodles (not bad) n some i love u n i miss u drinks (which was abit too small) =p

next, up to bukit jalil for the SHI FEN HONG CONCERT!! big thx for VICKIE who supplied the tickets~~ clap clap clap~!!
was a big gang turned up, including: me yancy ilex vic nic vickie kelvin joan ky cally n lett! wooo~~
was full of chinese in there, 1st time thought tht we dun hav privacy coz everything we talked will be heard. lol. plus we met some IRRITATING AUNTY who kept HARASSING young people. lolz.
but the concert started off with a blast with ren xian qi coming out~!! wooo~~ he is soooooooooooooooooo cute!!! wahahahahhaa!!! but i dun like his red jacket >.<

after him were those 'stars' tht i nvr heard of, so... after 3 unknown singers, 4 of us left halfway. >.<
went to mamak instead. hehehe. talk talk n talk.
then went to meet up with the others in joan's house~
had some alcohol, how i hope i got drunk. but no. at least not real drunked. haha.
nic sent me home, kept talking in the car along with ilex n yion, talked till we reached my house still not finish talking(which is around 1am), n continued talking in my house till 3am. XD
youngsters. tsk tsk tsk..

the day ends.

sense the freedom,
~ jess ~

Motorbike

2009-12-17T19:35:00.002+08:00

Was playing motorbike race in the arcade,
somehow it helped lifted my mood,
i could almost feel the wind blowing when i turned the gas handle,
the speed makes me feel good.
although it will be really awesome to really ride a real bike,
i could have died a million times due to crashes i made =p

n down to the real issues on road,
just witnessed a motorbike crashing into some big classy toyota car,
can really apply the slow motion to describe this,
the car's back bumper went right into the car, stayed, and came back to its position.
LOL
it was like its a string or something.
n guess wat? the biker did not hesitate to speed up n fled.
while my dad's car is right behind of the toyota + very near to it (we sudden break-ed)
the fella thought it was us who banged him =.=
even made us stop, and my dad explained to him tht it was the motor. dumbo.... can see it through the scar the bike left la... one straight tayar inked over its bumper.

conclusion : life without bike will be more secure n better.

ps: to my biker frens, PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHEN U RIDE OK??? >.<

pps: AVATAR IS SOOOO NICE!!!
~ jess ~

NO!! to exams

2009-12-14T23:30:00.003+08:00

just cant wait for the holidays.
i need the holidays
i dun want the exams.
i dun want the textbooks either.

i have no mood to study.
im sick of studying.

argh...
back to studies later.

ANTI EXAMS,
~ jess ~

Flashbacks

2009-12-14T16:35:00.003+08:00

my mind played the flashbacks,
actually had things i wanted so badly,
but it's gone just by a moment.

everything seemed so reckless,
wrong decisions pays,
it really does,
i witnessed it.

be more sensitive,
look around,
think deep.

hope i wont repeat the same mistake again.

some emo post,
~ jess ~

hectic week

2009-12-02T00:18:00.003+08:00

i need a few moments of fresh air.
been facing the screen for a long long time.
why have i been so lazy before.
shudnt have procrastinate, n i know i said the exact words last semester.
arghh!!!

oki, tiz week's incoming 5 assignments n presentations,
2 down, 3 more to go. after tomorrow, 2 more to go.
be tough!!!
woooooooooo~
i think im enjoying the stress. lol.

n gud luck to everyone who's having the same life as mine. =)

@.@
~ jess ~

unawared news

2009-11-29T18:48:00.002+08:00

got into some misunderstanding with a friend.
becoz i typed the message so blurly meant.
argh, and accidentally found out sumthing. about another fren, and this friend.

woooo~ so the world is small. now i know.

let the unspoken remain in silence.
it'll be exposed when the time is right.

god bless u.

still surprised,
~ jess ~

short term freedom

2009-11-27T16:25:00.002+08:00

CHAPTER 1: OUG pasar mlm

its thrusday, supposed to watch new moon with college frens but the summit gsc changed their time slot due to HQ's wrong information. the new time slot couldnt fit my timetable.. no choice but to refund. n the others went on watching T-T

then didnt feel like staying home at night, suggested for OUG psr mlm. =D suggestion approved~

9pm got outta the house to OUG. teehee~ thx nicholas lett n cally for fetching me, n really sory for the JAM. >.< well, joan n ky reached there earlier, so we walked around first.

bought lotsa FOODS.
- 'xi mi lu', tako tako, some cake, flavored sausage, kuey teow, n i cant recall the others. =p

later, yion raymond vic arrived~ went for 2nd round n sat on the table to eat the things. then we came up with the plan of watching the midnight show at midvalley. =D

CHAPTER 2: midnight show

nic drove me vic cally n lett to midvalley. tis is wat happened on our way to midvalley.

someone from the car suggested to open the window. since its already 11.30pm and there's so few cars on the road. so tht person opened the window lorh. n cally at the other side followed too. nice air blowing in.

n since we were on the highway, we shouted something outta the window. heeheeee..
cant rmb wat we shouted. but it was fun. nobody can hear us n the shoutings disappeared along with the strong wind. n then we reached some traffic lgiht area, a kancil was beside our car with his window opened too. hehehe.. so we planned some frenly communication with Mr. Kancil.

i heard someone shouting 'Hi, Abang' n Mr Kancil looked at the car in front of us(which is joan n ky's car) with some suspicious look. then the traffic light turned green n the someone shouted 'Bye Abang again'. wahahahahahhahaa... good friendly people eh? too bad the abang din reply T-T

reach midvalley, spent 10min at the counter deciding which movie to watch since there's so limited seats for us 7 ppl. finally came up with a conclusion- MULAN.

comment for MULAN : its okay and the characters are nice to look at, BUT I HATE THE ENDING!!!!! ter-knocked my head on the seat in fronta me(lett's place) becoz of being too gek dong to the ending. ishh... stupid ending... =.=

headed bak with the same opened window. =]

reached home around 2.30am.
i think i broke my record.
teeheee~~

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~
~ jess ~

ringtone

2009-11-18T20:10:00.002+08:00

that unfamiliar ringtone rang, was stunned when i heard it,
needed a few moments to identify the ringtone.
and when i was able to recall it, i unbelievably looked at the hp screen.
wow. it's really it.

long time no talk, good fren. =)

~ yuhui ~

another gigantic wave

2009-11-17T19:07:00.002+08:00

here's another climax in the semester.

after midterm, before finals = assignments period!!!

had quiz last week... which was much of a last min study (again)

having quiz tomorrow, a better last min study than last week's(at least i can sleep ^^)

then consumer behavior, get the survey form done n filled in, n type the 2 page report(single spacing T-T)

money and banking stock analysis, presentation, and report.

entrepreneurship n small business presentation (nx wed, n i haven touch it)

some recordings to do for the lovely choir of alma mater =D

accounting assignments (upcoming, and due on nx thurs)

did i miss out anything?? im dizzy counting... @.@

GIVE ME MORE TIME!!! i need my beauty sleep. >.<

typical college student,
~ jess ~

incoming foods

2009-11-10T20:40:00.002+08:00

looking forward to the coming pasar malamssss.

i wanna buy all those superb yummy foods from there.

the rm1 ice cream, i wan 2.
the uncle bob fried chicken.
popiah, 1 spicy 1 original.
the tong yun, all 'zhi mah' wan, dunwan peanuts.
the 'mat dou yao' tong sui, iced.
the 'wo tie', added with chillies.
'xi mi lu', the one with ice and fruits, =D
sausage~~~ (la chang) spicy punya.
bubble tea, honeydew flavored.

ummm... tht's all i can think of for now.
omg, my saliva's dripping!!!
wahahahahahahahahhahaha..
i wan FOOD!!!

food food food food food,
~ jess ~

founded

2009-11-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

haven been in touch with the net world for a while.
n im still alive.

proven that,
i CAN live without internet.
or not.

but it's always good to have a laptop for myself.
so when's the laptop coming to me?
sad case, no cash = no laptop.

wat a life.

pending assignmentssss blocking my view.
~ jess ~

sick

2009-10-31T19:56:00.002+08:00

never had a real sick for a long time.
n this feeling aint good.

having the head so pain n heavy,
and eyes hardly wanna open,
and simply no energy to use.

and shivering in my blanket at night when i have 2 cloths on,
plus was not feeling cold yet still shivered.
weird.

last night's temperature was 38 celsius,
this morning's was 39 celsius.
waited a very LOOOOOOOOOOOONG time to see the doctor, then i was out within 3min. =.=
oh my temperature was 38cels in the clinic.
mom spent RM47 on my recovering-fever.
got 5 packets of medicine, n i oni ate 2 of it. =)
healthy, rite? =D

well, getting well now. more sleep n that'll do. =)

i don't like to be sick,
~ jess ~

15th Oct

2009-10-16T14:04:00.002+08:00

many things happened today. lemme share them one by one k?

first thing >>
i got involved in an accident!!!!

ok relax, its jz a super minor accident.
was on my way to college in the morning. then was stuck in jam, so my car was in a stop condition. coz i was in the self-made-lane, the car in front of me cut into the other lane, so im the first car in tht self-made lane. so, the myvi which was abit in front of me(its body is beside my car), it had his head stuck in fronta me, so i hav no choice but to let it through, n i hav decided to let it through.

so when the front cars started to move, i did not move an inch, thn the myvi turned n scratched my car!!! sumo the sound is damn obvious, in a slow motion way, 'screeeechhhh~'.. thn it stopped whn the myvi is still attached to my car. thn the myvi tekan minyak again, and another 'screeech~' =.=

stupid fella rite.

so got down n bising blablabla.. he told me if wanna settle by cash, he could gimme RM10, see this properly, TEN RINGGIT MALAYSIA!!! wat can i do with tht money??? idiot!!!

so i jz ask him to leave his num, if anything will call him. n he gave it finally, in the N-th time i asked. =.=

dumbo!! rachel stopped by n helped me with it, thx rachel!!! =D

ok now, forget the unhappy things, lets move on~

2nd thing>>

just made frends with 2 koreans!! hahaha. very interesting process. after meeting i jz got out to meet yancy n yion, then there were 2 koreans sitting with them, apparently they are chatting + introducing. so yancy called me over, n they introduced themselves. very frenly people. =) i could hard make myself rmb their names, since its not tht catchy, but yancy said i good in pronouncing their names!! wahahaha.. coz she couldnt get them right!! XD dumbbb~~~ =p

well one of the guy's name is hyun-su, if not mistaken =p
and the other guy's name is jun, which is quite common. =]

then talked about their culture n language, n they told us they were teaching korean classes for free in my college! =) great rite? heehee~ maybe i'll attend them, learning is a good thing! =)

3rd thing >>

went for badminton~~ finally. =p
i had a single match with ilex and nicholas each, n guess what??
I WON!!!! wahahahahah~!!!!
should have bet on something first. =(
a 100plus would do also rite. >.<
n that sport made me sitting here with muscle aches =(
in pain!!!!! wuwuwuwuwu... can hear them creek and crack =(

okay thn, tht's for the day i guess.
jeez, this is such a long post!! >.<

oh and another thing, wanna learn to play an jing properly.
just thought of something when i played it. so it might be nice for me to play it smoothly~ =]

fin,
~ jess ~

music

2009-10-12T22:49:00.003+08:00

a sudden urge to make music.

want to create something pleasant.

or simply,

i wanna play it!!

anyone wanna join?

as simple as, sit together in front of a piano,

and humm and sing and play!!

sings,
~ jess ~

choices

2009-10-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

went to 6th floor(music department) to play piano again, really love the grand piano over there. just sounds so different from the one at my house.

so cally was beside me, n she said, you could be one from this department.

n so i wondered, what if i was really one of the students over there. hmm... guess i'll be stressed out from my hobby. think i'll get a different life there. filled with musics. cannot imagine. =p

one thing i liked about piano is, i love its sound. it can get fierce, and also gentle. interesting right? by just the few same keys u get to compose a whole new song. hmm. fascinating.

but there are times when, i get frustrated over piano. n that is when i cannot get it right. which happens lotsa times. so, to not build stress on my piano, n knowing i cannot get much further in that, just went for this course im taking.

i still believe i made the right choice.
right?

~ jess ~

critisizers

2009-10-11T16:09:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just cant take it when long-tongued people started critisizing others too over, in means of "its not ur business yet u still wanna step on it like its so ur business".

is it so damn hard for u to hold ur tongue for once and just zip it?

ou yeah..i remember, u have too much free time and just wanna fill it in with some way eh?

y not spend it by doing other meaningful things?? im sure there's still tonnes of good things that u're capable to do.

and yeah, people will thank u when u stop ur hobby to critisize. im sure of it.

note: statements above aint to shoot any specific person. i just wanted to shout it, that's all.

everyone has their own reasons for things,
why dont try and learn them?
- jess -

PASSED!!!!

2009-10-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

there's a GOOD NEWS to share!!

guys, remember wat i suffered from last few months??
streSSSSS from piano exam and final exam!!

and the news is......

I PASSED MY G8 EXAM!!!!

this is so so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
unbelievable!!!!!
a miracle!!!!!

well, my scales, the one that i played ALL wrongly, scored 13/21, when i thought i got 5-7 marks for it. HA HA HA!!! the examiner is so so so so KIND!!

pieces scored 19,19 and 25.
love the alligator crawl jazz, disappointing in the beethoven piece(which i spent 75% work on it) and not fair for the first piece.

and the total score is >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
104/150

lucky me eh??

im SO RELIEVED!!!!

n of coz, happy!!! =D

marked,
~ jess ~

foodSSS

2009-10-03T21:37:00.005+08:00

my health condition have been much better from last week, in general, i can EAT!!!! =D

so to put back my weight on, i'll have to eat MORE than usual.

meaning, asked my mom to buy LOTSA things for me to eat.

and for today, she bought me these~~~

for further explainations, there's the famous amos cookie, dried seaweed, wongwong biscuit, and BIG APPLE donuts!! wohohohohoho~~~

ohya, i finished 2 chocolate bars and 1 box of ice cream this week. nicee~~~

but its a tough job to get the remainings outta the toothless area, coz there's a hole and the threads are still not melting, which caught more food inside.. =(

anyway, eat well peeps. =)
human are born to EAT.
~ jess ~

nephew!!

2009-10-03T19:01:00.007+08:00

yo people~~

i just have my pangkat rised from 'SISTER' to 'AUNT'!!!

surprised?!?!?

hahahahahhaa..

well the story is, my big bro had his son born!!! =D
it was actually last week's news but due to to the busy schedule, now oni i hav time to update!! heeeheee..

n hor, jz now went to visit the baby, his name is 'hong2 rui4'!!
i carried the baby for the first time, veli the stress. =p
awww, aint he so ADORABLE?? =D

im old,
~ jess ~

new road

2009-09-28T17:25:00.002+08:00

ohya, forgot to mention that,
i used 2 new diff road to college today!!

i used a small road while i was going to college to skip the 2.20 tol (which is so damn expensive), my dai sou de jie jie taught me ytd in hospital one. heehee... thx for helping me saving the 2.20!! can buy a waffle!! wahahhahaa.

n from college, i followed BKF's car in federal highway. got a while i was ahead of him instead of following him, n i drove like 30km/h to wait for BKF, the cars all honked at me T-T they jz dun hav patience!!! >.<

weee~~ used 2.70 instead of 8.80 today!! ho ho ho!!!

mua is starting the saving money plan!!

$$$$$$,
jess

studying mood

2009-09-28T17:18:00.002+08:00

people lets stardieee~~~

mua is having quiz n 3 pending assignments on hold.
which must be done by this week.
i am so dead.

i hav no idea how i spent my last week's holiday.
y had the holiday finish... im so sad liao....

procrastinate is NOT GOOD.
but its rooted in me....
T-T

ok, will start chewing the book now.
ciao

happy studying,
jess

T.A.L.K.

2009-09-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

i need to talk..
i haven been talking for quite some time.
one thing is that, my mouth still cannot function properly,
i cannot open my mouth freely, cannot bite cannot laugh cannot scream cannot chew

and

i

hardly talked.

wow, can u imagine yuhui not talking?? T-T
er well, maybe sometimes but not for one WHOLE day rite??
now i know how hard is it to be some very super duper quiet girl.
or i was never one. =p

i wanna talk laa.... let me talk laaaa....
n.. n.... i wanna laugh also T-T

ps: i cannot smile like my usual self, becoz my face is SWOLLEN!!

nightmares,
jess

paths

2009-09-23T18:45:00.002+08:00

Everyone has different paths lying ahead them,
it's up to your own to choose what route to take.

Maybe there's been an intersection of us somewhere in the middle,
but it's only one tiny little spot,
move on and the spot will be left far behind.

choices are left to be made in life,
who moves on to where and to do what,
or who stays in the same spot and never willing to move,
take it or leave it,
for we never know what will happen in the end.

walked,
~ jess ~

tooth plucking

2009-09-23T09:33:00.002+08:00

well as u guys know, i plucked my wisdom tooth yesterday. supposed to write this blog yesterday, but really dun have the concentration, since i was in major headache after the operation.

okay, here's the process of the long 2 hours of me on the dental chair.

first, the dentist hold a enormous syringe n injected the drug into my mouth. due to me removing 3 wisdom teeth, the dentist havta inject 6 times of that thing.. on 3 teeth, both inside n outside. n yeah, it hurts.

then he left me there waiting for the drug to affect my nerves. n slowly i cannot feel my tongue n my lips n even my chin!! that's creepy rite? i touched my chin with my fingers, n i din noe wat was i touching back then. i feel skin from my fingertips, but my chin jz feels nothing at all. its like im not touching myself.

then the dentist started to cut on of my tooth, the sounds is really disgusting. i can hear my own tooth breaking, n i was so relief that im not able to feel anything. n must've hurt. after cutting, he used the playar to cabut my tooth out, but there were still some pieces left inside n he used the huge screw to smash it smaller so that he can take it out. the nurse beside me was using some sucking liquid machine to suck my blood since i cant even swallow. after that, the dentist sew my wound, i can see the thread dipped with my buh-lud. so the scene werent' that calming. lol.

after doing the same thing to my 2 other teeth, got up n went outside. throat was damn dry, coz the blood dried inside my mouth. can taste my blood, n it doesnt taste nice.

think i still hav to experience that one more time, since i still have 1 wisdom tooth left. T-T

was nvr afraid of the dentist,
till now.
~ jess ~

just it

2009-09-21T15:44:00.004+08:00

there was once this person,
who was able to see through my laughter.

and this person,
was kind enough to give me some rest.

never to laugh when you r not happy,
never to fake it even though u're trying to cover it.

yes im happy when im laughing,
its just that the happiness was self-made.

n its been ages since we last talked.
hate to say this, but i still xxxxx of u.

jess.

clown

2009-09-20T17:10:00.003+08:00

hurray people i am now officially a CLOWN.
note: plz feel the sarcasm.

and i will NEVER go to that saloon EVER AGAIN.

ohya, another important thing,

plz DO NOT pick on my hair.

ur cooperation is much respected.

sincerely,
jess

confession

2009-09-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

its the starting of the 4th week in college,
and i did not do any revisions yet!!!

i talk, laugh, eat, sleep, n day dream in class.
always thinking, it'll be okay, i'll just study at home later.
yet, the 'later' never comes.

then there'll be lotsa quiz going on later this week.. and assignments.
n i took all 5 subjects, in the good news is, i took 3 UIU subjects, which r alot tougher!!

i should jz start studying already, than sitting here n babbling bout my wrongs.
n yes i tried to study, but once i opened the lovely textbook, my mind kind of automatically shuts off. thn i'll be staring at the same old line for a long long time.

argh!!! wake up n study already!!!

having headache,
~ jess ~

Hide & Seek

2009-09-11T21:08:00.002+08:00

Through the mist i sought,

yet no other colour but white i saw.

Where did it go?

Shall i hang in there and not give up in the mist,

or shall i turn away and seek else where?

random,
jess